last day of 2009....

today is the last day of year 2009....tml will be a brand new year for all....thinking back of what had happen this year...i would say its definitely not a good year for many....lots of things happen and most of them are bad things....i hope all my friends and loved ones will be bless with a prosperous new 2010....

its really time i put an effort on building up my future...have been idling enough...time to keep my lazy bone straight up...i would like to say sorry to one of my friend, MF....she did her best to help me but yet i just brush it off....i really want to be on form again...im sure i can make it de...good luck to me!!

all the best to all my friends and loved ones!!!!!!!!!!!!! jiayou and huat ar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lets welcome 2010 together and prosper together!!!!!

tatty teddy bear from hallmarks

i think im seriously falling in love with this bear...tatty teddy bear aka me to you bear...he comes in many different design and pattern too...love his pathetic look and of cos adorable look....im thinking should i start a collection on him....i guess i should hahahhaha....ok then...my collection shall start from 2010 year!!!! he shall be my lucky bear from now onwards!!!!!

Best Friend Forever??

it isnt easy to get a real BFF...i used to have a few over different stages of my life. but as times pass...its either we drift off or our relationship just turn stale...the feeling of getting betray by someone we trust really suxs big time...

how i envy ppl who really have a soul mate to turn to when they are feeling down...have someone there to share their happiness too...why cant i just get someone whom i can share all my secrets with? why cant i have someone there when im feeling down?

now in my life i have tamtam and giangian....got 2 little girlfriend name bibi and jerdine too...will our friendship last forever? its nice knowing the girls...didnt expect to get close to them too lolz...i really hope everything will be fine..cos not alot of ppl can stand my weird character hahahaha

cheers to our friendship!!!!!!!!!!!!!! long live long live long long live~~~~~~~ hahaha

end of the year...

the year is coming to an end...ask me what have i achieve? i would say...none...what am i suppose to do? why am i always stuck at nowhere? why am i always lost? i guess im really too laid-back...to the extend that i get real lazy...its really not a good thing...

cc have been nagging at me...i knew he wanted me good...i'm always filled with ideas and wishes but never have i put them into action...fuck me! when can i buck up again? haiz...

i definitely hope that i can score better in year 2010...so many goals and dreams to achieve...help!!!! i really need more motivation....

JIAYOU! CAROL!!!!

Merry Christmas 2009!!!!

had a very quiet Xmas this year...mainly due to him cant stay out late....went to his place for dinner...then drop by to his sister place to use the Internet...he's trying to find recipe from the net and cook us some food lolz....we left his sister house at 11pm...he walk me to the bus stop...waited for quite some time...looking at the timing...i urge him to go home first...gave him a call when i reach home...Jocelyn then call me and say she wanna pass me a Xmas pressie...so paiseh...she got me a pressie but i didn't get one for her... =P Jocelyn reach my place at about 1+am...we had some chat and she left at about 3+am..i went off to lalaland at about 4+am....

dunno whats happening nowadays...no matter how late i sleep..i will automatically wake up at 10+am zzzzzzzzz...but i guess its good la...return my biology clock to the norm....

today is Christmas day...I'm still home surfing net hahaha....waiting for him to finish work and come find me...then its back to his house for dinner...

maybe its bcos i didn't go for any celebration...i find the mood for this festive season so down..even i went orchard for shopping i don't have the xmas feel too...or is it bcos i've aged? hahaha...anyway...i hope all of my dear friends have a happy merry xmas and lets look forward to year 2010 in a few days time!!!!

EVERYBODY HUAT AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

finally...finally...finally...

finally i can relax once again...the past few days i was busy like mad...and now i'm down with cough, eye infection, sore throat and i lost my voice zzzzzz...maybe a brief point on what i have been doing will be good..

18th dec 2009
reach longshi at 8.30am...the previous night i actually slept at 4am because i didnt intend to go that early...but i heard they are lacking of man power for that day so i decided to just pop by early and see what i can do to help...old man wanted me to go airport fetch the guests....12pm i am suppose to reach terminal 2 to fetch the Philippines...send them back to hotel for check in then proceed down to terminal 1 to fetch the Thais...bring them back to hotel for check in too...5pm back to the hotel to arrange for dinner with the Filipino's...Thais have went to expo for their training...thks to mr bean for the help in bringing them over....after the Filipino's have finish their dinner..i drop them over at tampines mall for their shopping and off i went back to expo for the set up...i didnt help much tho lolz...expo wanted us to be out of their place by 10.30pm...after that...the kids go back to geylang while i went down to HOS with cheng to discuss on their event...finally got back home at 3am in the morning...

19th dec 2009
isabel left for longshi very early...old man and miner came fetch me at 11am+....off to expo drive jinqiang's car....we then proceed down to terminal 1 to fetch the Taiwan peeps....arrange lunch for them...check into the hotel...went back to airport again to fetch lu dajie and his wife from Shanghai at terminal 1...along with ah bok and irene...they are fetching the KL peeps...almost same timing...brought the guests to check in hotel again..arrange to meet all guests at 5pm for their journey to expo...i went over to bath and change at wendy's house...reception starts at about 7.30pm with guests slowly making their way to the banquet...my job is to lead the guests to their tables and also socialise with them lolz...easy yea...after the banquet got to arrange for the overseas guests to go back hotel rest...told them to assemble at 7.30am the next day for their half day tour...as the Thais and Taiwanese have not eaten cos of their performance at the banquet..old man told kaka and miner to bring them for supper at geylang lor 7...i drop by to order their food and send them back to hotel...went back to expo again then realise all went off le...so its back to longshi again...i reach home at 4am....slept at 4.40am....

20th dec 2009
wake up at 6.30am...my brain keep spinning....telling my body to rest...dont feel like going but i cant zzzz....isabel fly me aeroplane cos she cant wake up..i went over to geylang to meet the guests alone..damn tired...the bus arrives and i send them up....their tour starts....from outram rd restaurant for breakfast to tank road Indian temple to Clarke quay river boat cruise...can see that everybody is dog tired...finish the tour at about 12.30pm...brought them to lunch at the same restaurant then proceed down to bt panjang for their dragon dance obstacles competition....finish at about 6pm+...bring them back to hotel for bathing and changing...arrange to meet those who wanted to go clubbing at 8pm....we have the thais and taiwanese....a total of 20 over people...proceed down to HOS...they have a lion dance obstacles challenge there too hahahaha....the Thais are interested to join in and they have 2 pairs to join in the challenge....tho they didnt get the first prize...but we can see that they are enjoying themselves...the Taiwanese decided to leave for their supper as there are hungry....so end up i only have the Thais with me..after the obstacles challenge....its party time...maybe bcos they are thais and HOS is a Siam disco...they can really blend in it...seeing them having fun is nice...Malaysia nan hua is also at HOS too....all i can say is...that night..everybody are drunk hahahahaha....send the Thais back to the hotel at 2am with bus....thanks to miner and small shihao help....i didnt go along cos i need to take car from cheng...cheng is drunk too...send him home and i took his swift then proceed home...its already 4am....

21st dec 2009
woke up at 9.45am...pack his clothing and personal belongings...pick up his dad mum and sister at 10.45am...drove down to selarang park for the counselling...i get his dad and sis to go in as im waiting for jeremy and nic....saw him at 1pm...im happy that we are finally united...we then went over to guan yin temple for praying...went down to his work place to meet his boss...then send his parents back home...he come over to my house to pack some of his clothings to bring over...we got to reach his house before 8pm...dinner at his place...im almost knock out at 9+pm...he told me to go home and rest...i left unwillingly...the feeling is weird bcos this time he wont be coming with me...well...just endure....6 mths only and i can have him back....10+pm i reach home...dont even have the strength to surf net...lie down on my bed and im off to slumberland....

counting down...

5 more days...i will see him back again...after the long wait...have arrange for his job and stuff...hopefully its a brand new start for me and him...

he didnt want any of his friends to see him when he's back...but friends from his lion dance troupes wanted to give him a surprise...i hope he is fine with it...

had borrow a car from my bro next monday to fetch him...need to bring him to a couple of places too...but bro just told me he send his car to repair yesterday...hopefully his car will be ready by sunday...

longshi anniversary is approaching soon...dunno whats wrong with me but i just simply dont have the mood to get involve with anything...guess old man is kinda piss off with me lolz..but who cares...

will be kinda bz this whole week...have not go HOS punch card either...will drop by this sunday bcos my brother have arrange for a lion dance obstacles competition...its more on having fun among ourselves and meet more friends....all lion dance troupes are welcome to join...no registeration fee need...for more info do drop by to www.long-shi.com ....

will be back again for more updates =D

A Total Loser!!!!!

met this loser at HOS..i thought its someone friend but end up all of them knew him for a short while only...on dat day....i was told to ferry him over to cck to take 2 lion heads...was told that he wanted to give it as a gift to HOS...nvm lor..since i'm free anyway..i help to run this errand with dat loser sitting beside me leading the way...to cut story short...i'll just pinpoint it on my knowledge of him during the journey

- big boss of some well know company
- he is somehow connected to lunar the pub too
- he got 2 cars , SLK and BM Sports
- he got 2 condo on hand
- he looking for a PA (Personal Assistant)

upon hearing he need to hire a PA...i jokingly ask whether he wanna employ me or not...and he readily says no prob wor...gimme a whole list on what i'm gonna get if i work for him...as below

- $4200/mth
- i get to use one of his 2 cars..he ask me to choose
- oversea trip all on him
- oversea allowance of $1000

in my mind i'm already thinking...wah...got so good offer meh...so i decided to see what he is up to...no harm spending abit of my time to see what trick he have...maybe it could be real too...lolz...anyway...im just giving him my benefit of doubt bcos he does sound very boastful...

the very next day he call me suddenly asking if i can start work or not..he wanted to bring ah mo out to sentosa...ah mo is a coyote from a thai pub...he says best if i can go with them cos he shy with gal zzzzzz...since im free that day i agree...he book a limousine...come fetch me then go fetch ah mo...we proceed over to sentosa...and i thought that he will bring ah mo to underwater world and stuff but guess what? he only bring ah mo tour around in the car zzzzzz...somemore he ask me to intro sentosa to her...how to intro when all we saw are tress and roads...i cant even be bother with him haiz

then we went out and procceed over to bugis for shopping...ah mo says she dont want to shop bcos she dont have money..so dat loser says...whatever she wanna buy i buy for her...then both me and mo went to the toilet...i ask him to wait outside...when we come out i didnt even see him lor..then he says he talking to some business frds...ask us to go ahead with the shopping first...he'll join us later...so we went over to bugis village...mo saw a dress and she seems to want it...so i call that loser...i say mo wanted to buy clothes..he says he's still stuck..ask me to help pay for it first...as the amount is not a huge one..i agree...

we've shop for quite sometimes liao but still i see no sight of him...call him he keep says he haven finish zzzzz....till about 1 hour later..he call me and says meet at burger king...me and mo went over meet him...after that send mo back to her hostel and we headed to HOS....

everything still seems ok on dat night...till the next morning..i'm starting to get irritated by dat loser...firstly..he promise to transfer me money...but i waited and waited...not a single cent i have receive...and due to all his boasting and some other issues..im beginning to believe he is just a fucking liar...i ask him for my money but till not he also didnt reply...secondly...i really doubt he is a big boss of dat famous company lor...same surname doesnt means you can say dat company is urs...cant even spend on drinks..cant even spend a mere amount of money on gals...cant even produce a name card too...pui!!! i can also say im benjamin sheares daughter cos we had same surname too zzzzzzz

i just cannot believe that this kind of person actually exist in this world...why is he even surviving and breathing the same air as us...he is a trash that needs to get recycled asap...boast like nobody business...i'm not saying this just bcos he cheated me of my money...anyway its not a huge sum also...just a few ten...im angry bcos this kinda fucker goes around bombing and cheating ppl...i curse him to be poor in time to come...better still he get beaten up by ppl whom he offended...never shall he get rich again for his next 3 lifes...to hell he goes muahahahahahahahaha

entertainment time again~~~

hahaha...had a very happening night again last night...from HOS to Medusa To Neverland...once again im being pull up by 4th uncle to sing at HOS...this time round sang 2 songs.."Dai Yin Mai" and "Ruk Sam Sao"...ruk sam sao is a song which i just started learning...couldnt really remember the lyrics..but thks to the singers there im able to complete it hahaha...thanks once again to my dear friends who hang flowers once again...thanks! =D

we then proceed down to medusa...stay there till 3am then went over to neverland...i cannot believe myself when i saw rain stating how much liquor we have drank for the night at FB... HOS (1bott+9jug beer) --> Medusa (1bott+1tower) --> Neverland (1bott+1tower+2jugbeer) ...wahahahahha...happening lor...its always fun when i went drinking with them...funny peeps...we have arrange to go out again tml to k box and fri,sat will be at HOS...i really enjoy partying with them..niceeee lolz

the video clip taken by rain is "here" and "here"

enjoy the entertainment provided by HOS singers and of cos me hahahahaha

dilemma...

should i allow it to happen? or should i just draw a line and stop...things always happen suddenly...when one is not prepared...a crises again...will i lost everything? am i happy with what i've got now? what do i want exactly? in a dilemme....

bon voyage!!!

tml isabel will be flying over to hong kong for her 5 days holiday...feeling happy for her =D she will be going to the disneyland too...hope she can enjoy herself...the following days will be quiet without her around...i knew im gonna miss her lots...

bon voyage my baby...enjoy your trip...*hugz* *muackz*

seeya next tuesday =D

damn f@#king piss off!!!!!

okok...now im fucking piss off with dat person...if i have a choice..i wouldnt have go to him...now telling me its troublesome..now telling me if he knew its so troublesome...he wont want to hire...WTF??? i didnt know filling up form and providing some documents is consider troublesome...somemore im the one filling the form zzzzzzzzz

why dont he just say he didnt want to hire in the first place when i already told him what is needed when we first met...now im seriously considering to let Score take over the employment...at least i dont have to lower myself...

met him 2 weeks ago...and he actually drag the whole thing till now...if i didnt call him today...i think he will continue to let it be...he dont even bother to drop me a line when he knew his agent cant fill in the form...now the deadline for this form is another 2 more days...ask for his letter from ROC and NEA...he says he dont have...now im actually just mailing the form over without the needed supported documents...damn fuckup lor...if dont have the heart to help then at least let me know earlier..i can arrange for others...nbz...arrggghhhhhhhhhhhhh....damn freaking "pek chek" now...*&*^^%^$#^#

hahaha...sorry im back with more HOS posting..yesterday night is really a crazy night for many of us...on the last set of their live band...i was drag up by "4th uncle" to the stage to sing song...last min thingy and i really didnt know what song to sing...then pepsi babe suggest to me..."how about dai yin mai"? haha...and it so happen i knew this song so i say ok...song started and lucky i still remember the lyrics...hahaha..the flowers start flowing in non stop *blush*....the senerio was damn funny lor..i would like to thank my dear friends who show their support...by the end of the show...i had about $300+ dollars flowers on me lolz...rain and kaka was busy with their cameras on me too..to view a clip of rain's recording..click "here"...thanks once again for the crazy night of fun we had..muackz!!!

happy happy happy~~~~

had a very enjoyable night today at HOS and ratchada lolz...maybe bcos alot of different troupes ppl are there...drink with nam sieng, cjh and tai tong ppl...happening...hahahaha...

isabel just says my blog is kinda bored recently bcos its all about HOS lolz...well...what to do when im found there most of the time...

anyway...will be punching card tml night again...usual group of friends there...maybe till i have some more new happening then i blog again ba...

p/s : i miss my teerak =(

new appearance

special thanks to isabel for giving my blog a new look lolz...she have been nagging me for ages to change the old blog skin of mine to something nicer...i didnt want to bcos i find the old blog skin so much easier to navigate around...its not that i dont understand the html thingy but i just ...... okok i admit im damn lazy to go read and find out hahaha...anyway...this blogskin nice hor..last time isabel use before too...i find it cute so request her to change into this for me...

so now..new appearance new life...lolz....thks irritating isabel for the "hardwork" she put into this blog...muackz!

for those whom i have left out from the link..pls tagged me again bcos suku isabel didnt save my friends link for me zzzzz...thks hor =D

tired tired tired...

been chionging recently at HOS and shift to other place after HOS call it a day...from ratchada to club zinc to neverland to V3...the deepest impression the other disco gave me is ratchada..see the way the customer hang flower really is an eye opener..hundreds by hundreds...i can really imagine how happy those singers are lolz...nothing much on club zinc and neverland...V3 have good live band too...the singer there actually speaks fluent mandarin...thumbs up for him...not forgetting cute looking too hahahaha...never like guys with specs on but he does carry the specs in a smart way..not bad not bad...=P

i seriously think if silver read this post of mine..he confirm will kill me de lolz...but well..those thais are here for money only...so no issues on any r/s starting kekeke...

planning to rest myself well before i start chionging again...my sore throat, flu and coughing till now not recover yet zzzz....must be all those drinking that delays it...

finally i have a taste on wat is hangover...guess i drink too much...this morning i feel terrible lor...keep waking up with an urge to vomit...indigestion from liquor lolz...didnt really get to sleep much...guess i'll be turning in early tonight...

expecting...

as the date is getting nearer..i find myself getting more anxious too...the feeling of missing him gets stronger as the day goes...cant wait to see him again...i hope things will go well for us in future too...baby i miss you...

my new pet, chip

my new pet hamster...she's a yellow pudding name Chip...i have yet to get her a mate but i have already name her mate Dale...so it becomes Chip & Dale hahaha..cute yea...bought 2 pudding from a lady..one is mine the other is bel...bel name her pudding Cookie...the below pics was taken on the 3rd day they were at their new home..enjoy the pics..

thank you...

went with zhicong and uncle ang to meet uncle dong regarding about his job...i would like to extend my heartfelt thanks to both the uncles for helping him...he has got the job =) his work place will be at sims place...a confectionary shop where he will be mastering the skills of cake making and stuff...thanks once again.. =D now im already doing the counting down time to the day we will be reunion..i really miss him alot...

anyway...back to the cake shop...what caught my attention at the shop is the cake below...



haha...for those who are way earlier or on my time de will find these cakes familiar...yes..its the butter cakes...i still remember i used to have it when im having my birthday...people's wedding and baby's shower...can u imagine the excitment i had when i see these cakes again hahaha...brings back memories indeed...now you wont be able to see this kinda cakes around those modern cake shop anymore...butter cakes are already taken over by the fresh cream cakes...well..im not a butter cake fans but its still nice to see them around isnt it...now everything in singapore is so commercialise that we have lost the touch of alot of things...how i wish sometimes that time doesnt go so fast...how i wish things are still the same....

party at HOS

yesterday night was the grand opening of HOS (House Of Sound)...i went over at about 9+ and saw alot of familiar faces there...as usual...party means drinking lolz...and at about 12am...im almost drunk with a mixture of beer and martell...its been ages since i get so high from drinking and i must say its fun hahahaha...but i want to keep myself awake so i went into the wash room and force myself to vomit...i guess i must have stay inside for a long time cos when im out...the guys were asking me where i went lolz...they all thought i left for home liao when they couldnt find me...

loiter around for awhile outside HOS while waiting for my "kick" to cease haha...ends up all gone home soon after and i went inside HOS and wait for boon...we had wanted to go for some food when some of his staffs say wanna drop over to neverland...so we decided to also drop by for awhile...luckily when i reach neverland im already awake...saw qiang, rain and the rest...saw chicken wings too and as im damn hungry...i help myself to the wings lolz...sorry ar i ate so much =P...after awhile boon come over and say he's leaving...so i leave with him and he gave me a ride home...

had a hard time getting myself to sleep bcos im god damn hungry and my head is still spinning...with throat getting dry...thot of going down to have something to eat before i sleep but im just so shagged...cant even recall how i fall into slumber land eventually...overall a wonderful night...it was fun!!!!

thoughts of the day

couldn't sleep at this wee hour...went into a dog's forum and browse around...came across some threads and posts and set me wondering...

Q : What is the definition of dog lover?

A : from my pov...a dog lover must be willing to look beyond the appearance of a dog...whether the dog is a mongrel, handicapped, fugly, sickly, old, hairless, beautiful, cute, adorable...whether the dog is good temperament, naughty, untrainable, well behaved or always getting into trouble etc etc...the person will still love the dog and give the dog his/her best...the thoughts of abandoning the dog will never ever go into that person mind...even if that person gets into trouble with AVA or HDB...he/she will find ways and means to keep the dog by seeking for solutions...a dog lover will loves all breed of dogs too...inregardless of pedigree or mutt...how far will you go to keep your pet with you? are you the above i've mention?

sadly...how many people in this world can attain and live up to that title? whenever i hear or read ppl saying they are dog lovers..i cant help but laugh at them in my heart...they kinda turn me off too...are they really one to start with?

its a cruel world out here and ppl are going after branded stuffs...the same applies to keeping a pet too...how often would you see someone keeping a stray cat or dog, a local rabbit etc as their pet...of not not forgetting the strange look those ppl look at the owner when he/she says his/her pet is a stray or mixed..more often we see pedigree pets being kept...but the worse is...pedigree are being dump and abandon now too after they outgrow their cuteness...or when they started to get old...the most often reasons we hear are no time for the pets, new baby, migration...have all these reasons become an excuse for the humans?

at times i find ppl in the forum just wanna act as a saint..saying how they would want their dogs instead of the kids...why ppl just dont like animals and keep complaining that dogs are noisy, dirty and dangerous...why didnt the ppl who complain or hate animals look at their own kids...why didnt those ppl abandon their kids but abandon their dogs instead...all the saint-liked whys...now my questions to all these saints are....are you very sure you are willing to give up ur kids for ur pets if circumstances forces u to choose between one...are you sure you are willing to even sarcrifice your life/your family for your pets...i dont deny there are hardcore animal lovers around...but to those who are just acting like one...dont you think by saying and asking all the whys you are just being fake...do you really think you deserve the title just by saying for the sake of saying? of cos its not wrong to love animals...but before you say yourself as a dog lover...think again...are you a lover of your dog or are you really one of the dog lover which i've mention above...

whenever my friends ask me...how many dogs have i got...i replied 4 dogs and 1 cat...they will often proclaim me as an animal lover...which i always reply...i'm not...simply bcos i dont love all kinds of animals...i'm just a pet owner...an ordinary person...definitely not a saint either...

i dont condemn ppl who only wants pedigree as pets...i dont encourage abandoning of pets too...they have life afterall...if the animals can choose...do you think they dont want to be born cuter and adorable and well loved by the humans..do you think they will want to choose to be born as strays and ugly appearance? they have the rights too...if happen that you dont like animals...please...just leave them alone...never ever abuse them or treat them like stocks...pass around of worse..put them up for sale for monetary gain...please do not breed your pets too...we have enough abandons pets in this society...

if you are thinking of keeping a pet...pls consider carefully as keeping a pet is a lifetime commitment...if thoughts like giving up ur pet should you be unable to keep them anymore comes to your mind...i would suggest you might wanna drop the idea of having a pet...but if after careful consideration and you are very sure of your decision...instead of buying from petshops or breeding farms...try to adopt from the shelters or dogs forum...i know puppies are cute...but pls dont deprive the abandon adults of love just because you find their young cuter...and please also sterilise your pets too...like what i say...we have enough abandon pets already and you dont have to add on to the number...

i think im off topic abit already lolz...anyway...forums are meant to let ppl voice out their opinion...but still...i hope ppl will think 1st before they start typing...even if you wanna be a saint...u have to act to convince...trying hard to be a dog lover when you are not one is hard hahaha

overall conclusion is :

1) i'm not a dog/cat/animal lover and i wont be one in my life
2) i'm the owner of my pets and i love them

so are you a real dog lover? or just your dog's lover =)

sick =(

started off with a dry blocked nose...then it leads to me having sore throat...coughing follow by flu...i feel so sick now...the funny thing is..i didnt take any medication and yet i feel drowsy...keep seeing double image...i feel my headache coming too...guess fever should be on the way also...sheesh...is it the weather? or its just because im heaty =(

Kong Meng San Phor Kark See Monastery

drove mum and her friend to Kong Meng San Phor Kark See Monastery today because mum says she wanna shift my dad over to be with my grandma or a more lower level for easier access...currently my dad's urn is place high up at the shelf and without a ladder its impossible for us to "see" him...before dropping by to choose the place...mum says we should go visit my grandma first so we decided to drop by to the newly set up monastery and take a look...upon stepping in..wow..we just realise that my grandma "old house" have been upgrade to a "condo" style unit and her placing is real good...5th floor and its on our eye level...fully air con with very clean environment...out of curiousity...we check out the prices and was kinda taken aback by the pricing on the different level...range from $2,880 to $9,880...the only setback is its only a 60 years lease..not a freehold lolz...mum decided to check out other place...

went to the "HDB" style monastery as describe by the staff who work over there hahaha...the pricing is definitely much lower then the "condo" style unit...we look around and the staff actually told us that its more worth to get the "HDB" instead of the "condo", reason because "HDB" is freehold...haha...so the decendents wont have any worries of having to shift their ancestors again when the lease is up or need to pay again to extend...mum found it reasonable and so we started to choose the units base on the numbers...of cos those lucky numbers like 88, 168,128 etc etc are all taken...in the end we took NN368 and NN369...mum decided to get one for herself too...just next to my dad...its at eye level...just a few "streets" away from my deceased sister (my deceased sister stays on 2nd floor...my dad stays at 1st floor)...her friend also decided to get one too and be her neighbour lolz...the price per unit cost $1,500 each...as mum's atm card only have a $2k credit limit...we will have to go back tml to settle the remaining...after that i will have to drop by to JB to collect some stuffs for old man...will be back blogging soon again =)

the "condo" style monastery where my grandma is in

her block number is 154

this is my grandma "house" and her unit number...she's staying on the 5th level

had wanted to take a shot of how the place is like but mum forbid me from doing so..u know la..old people very "pantang" de lolz...

wallpaper

took some shots which i personally like very much at sentosa...therefore i decided to make it into wallpaper...hope you will like it too...if you wanna use as your wallpaper...i would appreciate if you could just leave me a comment...thks...the resolution for both pic is 1600 x 1200...just click on it to enlarge...

counting down..

went to see his counselling officer today with both his parents...was explain clearly to us on what will be happening after his release...except for his mum who seems rather confused by wat the officer say...anyway..we r happy for him too..hopefully he really keep his promise to us and be a good man...

went up to his place to have dinner with bel, his parents and sister...as his dad knows how to read 八字 and 紫微斗术...i gave him all my particulars and he promise to check for me and let me know the result..kinda anxious too...will update again once i get it =D

after that spend some time at his house then drove his sister back home...as im kinda tired...me and bel head back home straight...she's busy on her blogging and i think after this im gonna off my lappie, watch some movie then i wanna go lala land le...tml got to go visit him...thus need to wake up early...to be contonue then..nitez

happy halloween~~~~

misha and that irritating lil gal lolz

i am looking at isabel and misha as im blogging this post hahaha...all i see now is a grumpy misha and a "never say die" irritating little girl...everyday without fail...she must irritate misha and most of the time she ends up with bites and scratches lolz...at times im wondering..if misha know how to talk..she would have curse and swear at bel for keep disturbing her....and after bel got bitten or scratch by misha...she would come and ask me have misha ever bite me before...which i would then tell her...ever since i brought misha home 1 year plus ago...misha has never bite me out of irritation before lolz...tho sometimes misha would nibble on my finger out of a sudden..im freaking sure its not bcos i annoy her...but more to her being bored and cheeky hahahaha...anyway i've got a freaking adorable misha who possess a very cute and angel looking face...for those of you who are wondering who is misha...she is my pet cat...a local kuching lolz...attached below is the pic of both the cast of my current post hahahaha

mac donald monopoly

haha...recently mac donald came out with this monopoly thingy on winning great prizes...me and isabel have been going to the mac for consecutive 2 nights liao...of cos we dont go there just for the monopoly thing only..its also bcos we are hungry too...and at the timing of 12am to 1am...the only choices left for us is mac donald only...its so sinful that i think we got to stop going mac already...if not by the time my dear is out..he would be asking me to go on a diet again lolz....anyway...i do hope i get to win the $50,000 cash too since money is the most important to me now...if any of u not playing the mac monopoly...pls do help me collect too hahahaha...good luck to me!!!!

twitters!

have seen alot of ppl using twitters recently and im kinda curious over it lolz...im a computer idiot and i know nuts about all these IT stuffs...went over to doggiesite and happen to see a thread on twitter...so i made a post asking about how to send messages to twitter and how do i actually use it...many thks to peewee for helping me...i manage to get my twitter on and then follow by sending messages to twitter in my blog! yeah! lolz...silly me actually find all this very interesting...the only thing which i dont like about my twitter is the webby link found behind my every twitter sentence...anybody know how to i remove it? i will branjar u kopi lolz....will continue to send short messages via twitter to kinda update my blog since i dont really blog always...be patient with me yea (*@*)

HUAT HUAT HUAT AR!!!!!!!!!!!

im so happy today!!!!!!!!!!!! strike 4D starter prize...tho its not a huge amount...but this shows that my luck is improving!!!!!! hahahahaha...bcos this is my 1st time =D

got the number from 金钱伯 at loyang tua pek gong temple...i place a 12 roll on the number and today it came up in starter...will continue to place this number for 3 weeks...if i ever strike again in the 1st 3 placing..i will be flying off to bangkok to pray and also donate coffins...this coming monday or tuesday im gonna make a trip down to loyang tua pek gong to give thks to 金钱伯 for the numbers he gave me...will buy him offerings too...getting kinda excited...am very happy too lolz

i'm very sure the crystal jocelyn bought me helps me in a way too...thks sis for the wonderful gift...lets jiayou for tml and hopefully we can go to bangkok soon!!!! yeah~~~~

HUAT AR!!!!

went to longshi 47A to meet a thai master with jocelyn and aika...they both wanted to have their fortune told while me is there to change luck as i have already get mine told yesterday...

the master name is monk prasert from bangkok...he was invited over by ah han...all i can say is..he is really very accurate lor...everything he says about me is so freaking true...kinda eerie...

1) was told by him that im gonna be rich in future...i have the luck with me (hopefully its true...im really expecting that...)

2) he says im a very straight forward person who just simply speaks whatever that comes to my mind...( true )

3) he says most of the time i choose to ignore/pretend to not know alot of things just bcos i dont wanna hurt myself.. ( true )

4) he says im pretty but why i got such a bad temper..always "fighting/argueing" with people... (somewhat true) lolzz...doesnt match my look =P

5) he says i got a very strong character too...the alpha in where ever i go..im more like the husband than wife in a relationship...always holding the decision ( omg...this freaks me out as its 100% true)

6) he says i almost die when im very young ( i then recall a car accident i had when i was 15 years old...and yes..i almost died )

and alot more...cant really recall everything...then he recommend me to have my luck change for a better future...i was thinking....why not...so today i went up again with the items which he wanted me to buy...

• 3 bottles shampoo
• 3 bottles shower foam
• 3 bottles mineral water
• 3 types of fruits (5 each)
• 5 different colours nail polish
• 3 bottles of nail polish remover
• 12 eggs

he start off the ritual by taking one of the egg and draw something on it follow by asking me to write my name on the egg...then he ask me to rub the egg all over myself and he start chanting...ask me to say "let all the bad things leave my body and goes to the egg" and keep repeating...i follow his instruction...after a few more chant...the master end the ritual by saying out loud again on the above sentence...follow after i saw the egg move...it was as if something enter the egg thus the movement...i was kinda stunned too...after the whole thing i jokingly ask the master is he performing magick lolz...

i really hope this luck changing can really change my life to a better future...im really dead broke liao and people owning me money still dunno how to pay back zzzzzzzzzz....

anyway i believe "tomorrow will be a better day for me!!!!!" HUAT AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM GONNA GET LOTS OF MONIES!!!!!!!!

hahahahahahh~~~~~

compilation post

09/10/09 friday

• send old man to airport at 5.30am
  
• coffee with old man at kiliney kopitiam at terminal 1 till 7.30am while waiting for him to enter gate
• 2pm pick up kaka from beach road then proceed down to airport again, pass to kaka's bro a piece of new dragon skin and get him to help bring back to hong kong and pass to wenlong
• send kaka down to yiwei at defu lane
• went home change and prepare for wedding banquet
  
• 7.30pm travel down to expo blissful garden hall for yangli wedding
• 10.30pm travel down to lau pat sat for tcss with jocelyn and folks
• 12am change place to east coast park for tcss
• 3.15am leave for home
  
• sweet dreams
  

10/10/09

• 2.45pm fetch zhiwei to linglong collect lorry
• lunch at eunos blk 2 - bak kut teh
• off to long shi
  
• 6pm leave long shi for dragon dance performance at little india
• 10pm reach long shi preparing set up for long shi 神诞
• 11.30pm leave for home
  
• sweet dreams

11/10/09

• 10.20am leave home fetch jocelyn from bedok
• 11.30pm reach wild wild wet
• fun all the way till 5pm
• proceed over to escape theme park
• leave theme park at 8pm
• went loyang tua pek gong praying with jocelyn,isabel and xuan
• pray for 4D number from ah pek
• HUAT AR!!! lolz
• send them back to bedok
• home sweet home

12/10/09

• set off to JB with isabel at 11.30am
• take breakfast
  
• pump petrol
• short shopping at tmn sentosa
• bought vcds back
• isabel wanted to try manicure and i opt for pedicure..total spend RM$70
• had our late lunch
• travel back to singapore
• head over to long shi and drop old man's stuff
• back home
• napping all the way
• meeting jocelyn later to pass her her winnings..
• HUAT AR!!!!!!!!
  

=)

im happy today...really happy...ever since he left me on june 25th...i have not been feeling hopeful...but i had a very happy happening today...cant say out what exactly is it but i do hope the rest who knows im happy today are happy for me too.... (^_^)

had a discussion with one of my friend today...i thought of going back into a biz which i have quitted 2 yrs ago...but that friend of mine kinda confused me with all his biz theory lolz....i have never thought of all that complicating steps before when i started previously...and all goes well for me...but today he kinda like "brain screwing" me with all the proposal and planning he got hahaha...for a moment i was suspecting how could a 27 years old guy be so naggy =P i know he meant me good..wanted me to succeed...but i find it very hard for me to come up with a biz proposal and stuff lor...haiz...anyway...i'll see how it goes ba...

suxs lor..i find myself getting lazier and lazier everyday lolz...i just dont like to stress myself...i should have been born a taitai in the 1st place hahahahahaha...who knows hor..i might just strike rich 1 fine day...hopefully =D

i can finally start my counting down now...i hope the days pass faster...thks god for everything...

清晨的感觸

九月三十日 晴

現在是早上七點二十分。。。不知怎的﹐我睡不著。。。

昨天晚上﹐看了范文芳與李明順的婚禮﹐讓我感觸很深。 好幸福啊。。。我有一天也會像文芳那麼幸福嗎?

我的他﹐終於在七年後的今天﹐ 對我說出他會娶我。。。這真的是我一直在等的結局嘛? 這一切都會是真的嘛?

經過了一次失敗的婚姻﹐我從沒想過再嫁。。。正所為﹐見一次鬼還不怕黑嘛。。。上一次的經歷真的是不堪回首。。。只留下了一道傷疤。。。

但是﹐我遇見了他。。。除了一些要不得但是能夠改掉的壞習慣。。。他真的對我非常的好。。。我想。。。應該再也沒有人能像他這一般的縱容我了吧。。。在他身邊。。。我永遠都能那麼霸道﹐不講道理。。。永遠都是他掌心上的那塊寶石。。。

是緣嘛? 我想應該是的。。。我總是以為我會放棄這段感情。。。但很多次﹐我都堅持了。。。這是唯一和我上一段婚姻的不同之處。。。上一回﹐我很果斷。。。說放就放﹐連頭也不回﹐我放下了。。。這一次﹐我竟然機會給了一次又一次。。。都已經忘了那一次又一次原諒的次數了。。。

現在﹐我只想好好的等他。。。我們應該很快就要團聚了吧。。。我想﹐我應該會很幸福的。。。 (^~^)

至死不渝的爱情|A Touching Love Story

一辈子都能和相爱的人在一起，这…难道不是人人都向往的爱情吗？

尽管山崩地裂或海枯石烂也要在一起！

但…真的会有这样的爱情吗？

请看看以下视频…

This is a touching love story which brings tears to the eyes of all who watched it.

~Beginning of translation~

01:11

A female dog lays dead in the middle of the road, with her male counterpart staying close by, refusing to leave an inch

01:18

Amidst the heavy traffic, he did his utmost to drag his beloved, who still had a bit of warmth left in her, to the side of the road

01:31

As he watched the heavy traffic that passed him, he keeps a vigil watch over her body, trying to revive the lost life which was still with him a couple of minutes ago

02:02

Unlike humans, animals are very straight forward with how they express their love. He hugs and licks his wife, whose body is still soft, bearing hope that she could still be saved

02:42

(Video owner's commentary)

In this long distance footage, I gave him a sausage. He bit off half and place it in her mouth. I gave him water, which he hastily lapped and fed her some

When she doesn't react, he lay down dejectedly and rests his head on her body, exuding a sadness in his eyes...

In this fast developing time, how many animals have perished on the roads? How many animals have been sacrificed because of human civilization?

03:50

During the (Sichuan) earthquake, a man was carrying his (dead) wife and was hailed for his undying love. Yet, what do people view of this little dog who protects his beloved with his own lithe body?

No love is greater or lesser, superior or inferior. We have the same emotions but we do not understand them... or we cannot be bothered to do so?

Picking a farm house, he watched by the side as we dug a hole under the shade of a tree at the backyard and buried his beloved

~End of translation~

尽管他再努力的搓揉着她的身躯，她还是不能睁开眼睛…

在01:23，公犬还双手紧握着雌犬的身体，帮忙妇人将尸体搬走。

这一幕顿时让我湿红了眼睛！

你…

相信有至死不渝的爱情吗？

[credit from dead-cockroach]

random pics

have you ever seen a cockle so big? its the size of my palm...its my 1st time seeing such a huge cockle...and this pic was taken at a restaurant in JB when old man, me and kaka took waimui there for dinner...amazing isnt it? or am i suaku? lolz

this pair of chip & dale was given to me by a friend...i had intended to buy this pair when i 1st saw them in 7-11...cos they reminded me of silver...but my friend took them and pay for it saying its a gift to me...i really appreciate it..thks roy =)

this hamster belongs to isabel, if im not wrong she name this hammie Bonnie.. she will take her out every now and then from the cage...this pic was taken when she release her on my lappie keyboard...cute eh

manicure

outdated post of mine =P

went the bencoolen at bugis with ferlyn,jocelyn,mandy and ruan shi for manicure/pedicure...i was the only one who opted to do manicure only...the rest had their pedicure done...it was a girl's day out...the below pic is an after snap of my french manicure...unbelievable thing is...the nail polish actually stay on my nails for more than 3weeks before i decided to remove it yesterday...this shows that OPI nail polish are good lolz....

p/s: those nails of mine....bcos alot of ppl thought they seems fake...they try their ways and means and try to remove by pulling at my nails hahahaha...result? of cos they failed la....cos its all REAL!! lolz



after removing my french manicure last night..i decided to try on something new...a colour which i have not use before...tada~ look at the below pic...i find this combination kinda nice too...bought the nail polish from faceshop and i'm very happy with the result... =)

happy birthday my dear

went tele visiting him yesterday as its his birthday...i really enjoy time with him alone even tho its just a mere 30mins...sang him a birthday song...he told me 2 of his friends wish him happy birthday too...

got news from him that next week onwards we should have news on his progress le...if the news is wat we will be expecting...we will be reunited on end of dec of start of january...im happy =)

after the visiting i went over to jolene's house since im at the west side...we then took a bus down to vivo and meet louis...they wanna collect their specs...after that its a late dinner for 3 of us at pasir panjang hawker lolz..

after our dinner, louis and jolene came over to my place and i show them the letter chao wrote...they stayed for awhile then leave for home as everyone of us is getting tired..

nothing much happen...life is still as peaceful as ever...only prob is my funds running low...am looking ard for more lobangs now...i know i can pass thru :)

will be fixing another date to visit him soon...

will be back blogging again...

祝你生日快乐 19/09/2009

九月十八日 晴


很快的，你的生日又要到了，唯一跟往年不同的是，今年你的生日没有我在你身边 替你庆祝。今天我的感触也特别多。。这感觉好奇怪哦。

我真的好想你，到底还要等多久? 我不要这种无止境的等待。

这真的是上天在考验我们吗? 为何在七年后才给我今天。。。到最后，我们会是大赢家吗?

其实在你走的那一天，我已经非常肯定了自己的决定。。。只是我不曾把这答案告诉任何人。你又可否明白我的选择? 你猜对了吗?

自己一个人的日子真的好难过，若我们是分手也就罢了，可是现在的我是在等待，还有多久呢?

我还是非常向往探望你的日子，虽然只是那短短的二，三十分钟。虽然那次数是那么的有限。。。

明天，我将会带着我最深的祝福，唱着“祝你生日快乐”。。。虽然没有蛋糕没有礼物，虽然我碰不到你，吻不到你。。。我还是要告诉你。。。“亲爱的，生日快乐！ 我爱你。。。”

meaningful clip

found a very nice clip on facebook shared by my friend...thot i'll share with u guys too...enjoyz...

commex

attending IT shows has never been my interest...but today..i went out with bunbun to catch the last day of comex...he is suppose to go with his sister but ends up he overslept and fly his sister aeroplane lolz...he then sms me saying he might not be going comex le since he have no more kakis to go with him unless im going...he will comes along =)

i had actually wanted to get a monitor for my desktop since my current one is spoil...and he wanted to get a flat screen for his room...so we arrange to meet at city hall mrt for the comex fare...there's still alot of people around with those fliers scattered all over the place...different floors with different electronics...we proceed up to the 5th and 6th level to find our stuffs...prices not very attracting and bcos its coming close to their closing time which is 9pm...we went off...i then realise i have not eaten anything for the whole day zzzzzz...bun says since i have not eaten..he'll go eat with me =) ...we then proceed down to the basement of suntec and decided to dine at a korean cafe...we had also decided to walk to the fountain of wealth after our meal but too bad its close when we walk over...as bun need to work early tml morning...we decided to call it a day...

he on his way back to woodland...and me back to redhill...

we chatted again online when we are back home...nothing much...

everybody's tired...we really need a good rest... =)

arrgghhhh

im having a bad headache now..guess its due to my lacking of sleep for the past 3 days...was at a chalet from the 11th till the 13th sept...busy with all the arranging and contacting...tiring but fulfilling i must agree...to be continue again soon...nitez all =)

visit

went visit him again yesterday - 07/09/09....together with zhiyong and his dad...no news again...haiz...dunno how much longer he got to be in there...if wat he say is true...then he would have spend his past 2 months plus inside for nothing...

didnt really get a chance to talk to him much as zhiyong is trying to get more info from him...wat can we expect when we only got a mere 20mins.. zzzzzzz

i've book online for the next tele visit on the 19/09/09....its his birthday...i want to be there for him...to sing him a birthday song...i'll go alone this time...i need some time with him...

i hope i get good news soon...i do have my woman's instinct that he will only get a 1 yr sentence...lets hope my instinct is correct...gonna turn to my tarots for advice too...bless me...


p/s: i miss you so much...
day 77

its over finally...

finally taka lion dance competition is over...i've been there since the 1st of sept till the 6th sept...kinda tiring...but its nice to see familiar faces again...more like a gathering for me lolz...

the overall result is not very satisfying actually...the hot teams didnt manage to emerged whereas those not very good teams climb up to the top....

anyway..i would like to convey my heartfelt congratulations to : yiwei,weiyang,kiew sien keng,xiong feng and yi quan for getting good results this 2009...jiayou for next year competition too!!!!

memories?

was at taka for this whole week...saw my ex bf, alvin....memories of us came flowing back...

me and him were lovers many many donkey years back lol...which is in 1993...when im still very active in my dragon dance...

love his beautiful face...love his sweet smile...love him for who he is...but somehow after abt 1 yr...we broke off...

i still see him every now and then...his side is always accompanied by those "ah lian kinda gals"...i feel the heartache but i choose to hide 'em...

its been so many years...1993 to now 2009 is already 16 years...so much things had happen...seeing him once again brought back beautiful memories...he is still as handsome as ever...still very my kind too lolz...the only difference now is...he have matured and change into a better person...no more dangling around doing stupid stuffs...im happy for him...

as usual...he got a gal beside him...quite sweet looking but looks young..of cos not forgetting lianish too =P

16 years later...finally at taka...we started chatting again...we exchanged numbers...everything seems cool...we even agree to go out for coffee when we have the time to...will arrange again i told him..

its really nice to see some old friends around...tho me and him were like having some special emotional commitment...but dats many many years back le...i would still want him as my friend.. ;)

well..in short...memories are sweet...

男人好好看

found a very meaningful write out on a certain forum...decided to copy and paste it in my blog and share with u guys...pls do read it...


你可知道
要女人清晨醒来
凌乱的面對一個愛的人
是需要有很大的勇氣

你可知道
當女人被男人
脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人爲什麽會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱着她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道
女人那么愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深爱你的女人在冲你发火以後
自己卻轉身不斷啜泣

你可知道
當女人頂着哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你发火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐惧

而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你还不够懂她

女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

于是，你們争吵，你認為她脾氣不好，她認為你不够迁就她……
于是，你们冷战，你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……

請給她一個拥抱一个吻，用你的拥抱你的吻去化解她心里的悲傷和眼角的泪水。
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安静。。。。。。。。。。

希望每一个男人都能够好好珍惜陪伴在你身边的女人

她们为你付出过，不求回报

却希望你们能够读懂，能够牵着她们的手坚定地走下去

不要让爱你的女人流泪

不要让她伤心

更不要让她绝望和死心！
因为女人一旦真爱了，失去她爱着的人
就意味着失去了整个世界...

Movie - Final Destination (4)

went for movie with ah boy, big shihao and friend at great world city...catch the 3D Final Destination airing at 7.10pm...quite excited bcos dats my 1st time watching a 3D movie...same applies for ah boy too lolz....

the movie itself it not as good as Final Destination part 1...i find this plot so so only..no big hooha...but the 3D is nice..my natural instinct is to siam when there are things flying towards me hahahaha...funny...the show is kinda gross too when u see those human flesh scattering around..bloody scenes...overall i would rate this show 3/5...

i wanna go watch the movie "the last house on the left" too..hopefully they wont take it down so soon like how i miss "the orphan"... =D

1st letter

weird..i received his 1st letter finally yesterday..his 2nd letter arrive first then follow by his 1st zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...dunno wat the ppl inside doing...

will be visiting him again face to face on the 07/09/09 monday at cluster b...together with his parents...after that i will book a date on the 19/09/09 for a tele visiting...most prolly im going myself..its his birthday...i hope i can spend the 30mins with him alone...going to sing him a birthday song too...miss him lots...

will buy him a pressie too and wait for him to open his birthday pressie when he's back with me..

p/s : i love you my dear..muackz!

blood suckers

wtf...i find citi bank is really a money suckers...few days back they call me saying i have a balance of $1.64 outstanding...ask me to settle it asap...this morning i receive call from them again...telling me to settle $41.64 cents..zzzzzzz...can u imagine i only owe $1.64 and they charge me a $40 interest????? ridiculous right? no wonder they got more and more banks opening up..kaoz...i better go settle it asap before they start calling me again and add another $40..blood suckers!!!!!!

2nd letter

received the 1st letter from him on the 20th of august 2009...but from wat i've read...this is his 2nd letter to me..weird dat i didnt get his "1st" letter...i guess its either the content doesnt pass or they just lost his letter...

from wat he wrote..i can see he really miss us alot..asking after everybody and stuffs...

his birthday is coming soon...i've got him a card from precious thots intending to send out these 2 days since it takes ages for the letter or card to reach him...i'll also try to arrange to see him on his birthday itself if possible...

wonder when can i know the final verdict..it suxs to just sit around and wait for unknown date...hope everything goes well...and i'll see him soon..

both me and isabel had written a letter to him too..i even get his friends to write him letters soon...i know he is expecting to hear from all of them..

nothing much had happen to my life too...kinda calm and peaceful now..is dat a good thing? haha

its already the 60th days today...i miss him lots...hope i get to be in his arms real soon again...

happy birthday to my friends..

happy birthday to rain kazuya waimui...all the august babies =)

was invited by kaka to go to 2dawn karaoke pub at kampong bahru area on the 21/08/09 to celebrate their birthdays...pop by and saw a couple of familiar faces...nothing much going on except for the birthday babies getting high and drunk at the end of the night lolz...

realise i dont really like clubbing anymore as its getting kinda noisy...but well..i guess i have to make exceptions every once in a while for this kind of events...

after the whole thing end with ppl sending the birthday babies home...some continue with their clubbing...me,yaozhong,quanfeng,ah yang and gf decided to drop by to a prata shop for some hot tea...had some chit chatting and i left at about 5am lolz...nice meeting all these peeps once again...cant really say i enjoy alot but its fun watching the guys enjoying themselves...

i didnt bring my camera on dat day so i guess i have to wait till they upload their pics to facebook and i'll grab from there...so...pics to be update yeah ;)

1st televisting

14/08/09

went for my 1st tele visiting yesterday...

dunno why also...im more cheerful this time round...he sense it too...he told me the first few visit he sees me i look so stern and unhappy...but yesterday was so different...we had a 30mins joyous talk...prolly its bcos yesterday only me went alone to see him...so much time and privacy...and he did hope i will go visit him alone sometimes so he can have more time with me...

i suddenly realise i still love this man alot...no doubt he have disappoint me many times...but i know im still willing to forgive...im still looking forward to the day when we will be reunited...i miss him so much...

am trying to arrange online for the next visiting but it seems to have problems...all dates are taken zzzzzzz...monday must call the office and check liao....

after the visiting...i met up with a few new friends at lau pat sat...had a very enjoyable night chatting and relaxing...nice...

nothing much to blog about...actually have tons of pictures waiting for me to upload la but i lazy lolz...will try to get it done asap...meanwhile...take care... :>

thots of the day...

05/08/2009

went selarang park drc visit him today with his parents...seeing him again makes me realise that i do indeed miss him very much...i really wonder when can we be united again...hopefully wont be long...

he have gain weight, become more fitter in fact...still as bubbly as ever tho he did teared when his mum cried...i knew he wanted me to wait for him although he put it in a way that he didnt want to be selfish by asking me to wait...i hope i can really wait too...pls dont keep me waiting for long baby...

in a glimpse...i have been living life without him for 42 days le...im feeling so lonely and empty...is everything going to be the same again?

ended...

started on 12/07/09
ended on 29/07/09

im so mentally tired...

what am i looking for? i don't know...

coldness

why are you giving me the cold shoulder?
why did things turn out this way?
is there a last chance?
i regretted being nasty that night..
im sorry baby...
i miss you...
can we turn back the time?

haiz...

he have shifted again...got to wait for the letter before i can see him...dunno when will that be...

after 28 days...

finally i get to see him today...

woke up at 6am...meet his dad at 7am and off we proceed to cluster B...waited till abt 9.30am then we get to see him...

hair shaven...seeing him again gives me a kinda weird feeling...

time given was only 20mins...we had a fast chat...told him i hope he would change for the better once he's free...but i get a kinda disappointed answer...and i didnt know how to react to that...i really dont...

things kinda changed...i knew he is just forcing his smile to us...he set me to tears...i know he is trying very hard to control his tears too as he keep telling us how ok he is inside...he is doing fine etc kinda things...a man i've had for 7 years...how would i not know what he is thinking...haiz

gathering

met up with regine and angela last saturday at boat quay, the cavern, for a gathering...they are both my childhood good friends...we had so much to talk about...kinda miss the time when we are young and were having fun together...

now everybody had their own things to be busy with...well...we are all grown ups now...no more the carefree little girl =)

memories of how we get into trouble when we are young came flowing back...seems like it just happen yesterday...i really miss it...all the laughter and happiness lolz...

forever friends we should be...this i promise...

feeling?

22/07/09 is coming soon...2 more days...i've got very odd feeling about it...looking forward? or dreading to go...complicated mixture of feeling now...

its coming to a month soon...wonder how is he...

songs lyric

like this song cos it kinda express how im feeling...


对不起我爱你----梁静茹

作曲：潘协庆 作词：潘协庆/李宗盛 编曲：洪敬尧
　
没别的 只想说对不起 对不起 我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想 你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定
你知道 有时候感情事很难说 很难说 爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要 一想你 我的心就发烧

想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你

没别的 只想说对不起 怎么样 我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲 你怎么做 也不会影响我的心情
你知道 有时候男孩更难捉摸 难捉摸 爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要 一想你 我的心就狂跳

我的模样记不记得牢 情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你 听歌想着你 大地和蓝天 出现的全是你
我纔不管你的表情 我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你

你听一听我的心跳 你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你

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爱上你是一个错 - 杨培安

人生有许多难关要过
自古是情关最让人难受
也许我命中注定情海中颠簸
为你我付出这么的多
却让我痛到有苦不能说
因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄着了魔
解开我的迷惑
收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多
心也早已伤透
我已不想再为谁去等候

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tur you ti nai?

seeing u everytime makes my heart beat faster..
missing u till my heart's aching...
i miss hugging you...
miss ur smell...
miss your kisses too...

how did i fall in love with you?

i always thot im a woman who can be on my own...
atlas...it wasnt easy...

im always looking forward to see you...
do u happen to know that too?

dilemma

why would this happen when im in the mid of this crises? im in a dilemma now...

Please lend out a helping hand...

poor little girl..having to fight the pain and suffering at such a young age...there are lots of donations going everwhere to help charmaine's family overcome their financial burden...pls click on the banner and read the blog of charmaine...



for those who can help with the donations towards charmaine...pls click (here) !!!!

folks...life is a very fragile thing itself...how great would it be if we can help someone who is struggling now to live all over again...it does hurt to lose the ones we loved...i sincerely hope whoever that come across my blog to just click on the link and help out...thank you very much...

finally...

missing you...day 14

finally, i've received a letter today saying i can go visit him le...as i got the letter quite late...i couldnt call them to make the visiting booking...have to wait till tml...

currently now he have been transfer to changi le...no more at sembawang...everything still pending..

they allow tele-visiting and face to face visiting...but face to face visiting i have to wait till next wednesday le...cos i just missed this week de visiting...but i'll try to arrange for tele visiting this saturday...hopefully they can arrange for me...

looking forward to see him soon...really miss him lots....

haiz...

missing him Day 13...

still no news yet...im really getting worried...may god bless him....hope everything turns out fine...

my dear...i hope what we (me and all ur friends) had guess will all comes true...that this will just be a short period that u r leaving us...you will soon join us back and everything goes back to normal...i really miss u loads...thoughts of you filled my heart and mind...pls take good care of yourself...i love you...

10th day

its the 10th day already...still no news yet...wonder how is he now...i bet he must be missing home...missing all his friends,family too...i miss him dearly...

will i get any news tomorrow? i want but im scare...scare what im getting is bad news...i hope the news im getting is good one...have been feeling im on tenderhooks for the past 1 week...when can i be at ease...

life without him really makes a big difference...no one to nag at me...no one calling me asking "what are you doing?" "where are you?"...nobody to kiss me goodnight before i sleep...no one to disturb isabel...etc etc...suddenly the whole house just seems so quiet...its a scary feeling...i just have the feeling im being abandon =(

haiz...its just all fated...if going in for a few months can exchange back his freedom...i would be happy for him too...hope that he will sincerely change once he's out...im willing to forgive him again for breaking the trust i had in him...for breaking my heart times and again...

during the days when he was not around...memories of our past came flocking back to me...the arguements, the happiness...the sweet and the bad times...i miss him...

there are times when i just feel like letting go...but its really not easy...its afterall a solid 7 years relationship we had...other then him having those bad habits which i detest...he is really good to me...

i pray that he will not disappoint those who loved and concern about him again...pray that he knows how to treasure everything once he's back...i pray that he will be fine...

online lingerie store

my friend had just started out an online lingerie shop...went see see look look around his webby and i must say his stocks are nice and price very very reasonable...i doubt u can get these kinda lingerie with his pricing anywhere in spore...haha...now i sounds like a sales person ar... =P

anyway i dont earn comm from him...just feel that his stuffs are worth buying...for guys who wanna buy for ur wife or gf or gals who wanna buy for themself or as a gift...do drop by and have a look...who knows u might just see something you like...

anyway the link ---> www.epremium.biz (pls click on the "online store" found on your left hand under the main menu)

happy shopping =)

nervous

its coming 1 week soon...from what i heard, his results will be out by this week...im getting nervous on the final outcome...is everything going to be good? is the charges going to be the same as what i've heard...i pray hard...

6 days without him and i can feel my pace being disrupted...everything just seems weird...i have been calling his closed friends who are helping to find out how is he now, everytime hoping to get good news...but...it always ended up with no news...

lucky for me...he had get 2 ppl to help him make a call out to me to let me know how is everything...and i certainly hope what that 2 person said will come true...he is only going to be charged with a minor offence...

im going to get news on him either this coming thurs or fri which is tml...i hope i get good news...

god pls bless him....

....

dread the feeling of going home...dread the feeling of sleeping alone...have been going out till wee hours these few days...im still not used to being alone...its really tough..

when can i visit him? no news at all...

all his close friends are concern about him...even my mum also ask about him...i deeply appreciate it...

i hope i dont have to wait long before he get his freedom...i hope he will be home with me soon...i really miss him dearly...

good news? bad news?

5th day....from what i gather from my friends, if i receive any calls saying that he will be out within this 2 weeks...dat is bad news...he's gonna get charge for heavier punishment....

i hope and pray that he wont be out then...stay there all the way...his friends,family and me will be waiting for him out here...stay strong my dear...

sleepless nite

ever since he was away...i didnt have a good sleep...everyday slept for only 2-3 hours...waking up every now and then...to find the other side of my bed empty...im so not used to it...it just seems like my other half is gone...is missing...i feel so lost...

to live by myself alone after 7 years of companionship is really not easy...i have no one to talk to when im home,no one to buy me my fav oolong tea anymore,no one to pamper me again,no one to treat me the way he does,no one for me to call and ask "where are you?" "what time will you be home?" anymore...suddenly my world just changed...

ping told me...the 1st year is the toughest to go through....cos my brain will be fill with his image...will miss him lots...i know its true...bcos this is only the 2nd day and i can feel the difference already...its gonna be more tough in times to come im sure...

dunno wats happening this year...within a short 6 months...so many things happen...joshua,wing seng,feng,pang...follow by NT and now its my man...WTF is going on???? why is all these happening???

im really in no mood to do anything...im so tired...mentally and physically...i just lost interest in doing anything...i think i need a break...

im looking forward to seeing him again...i've promise him i'll wait for him....i know its really not easy...but i really hope that he can be a better person when he gets back his freedom again...i hope everything is worth it...no regrets....

be home soon...

second night without you by my side...my heart's aching so badly...i really miss you...how have you been? couldnt resist myself from crying whenever im home alone...i miss your voice...miss your hug...miss your smell...be home soon...

i just couldnt believe all this is happening...what am i suppose to do without you by my side? is everything going to be ok? i pray to god...pls keep you safe...be home soon...

i promise you i will wait for you...pls stay strong for my sake...im so looking forward to the day when i'll be seeing you...i miss your smile...miss your laughter and i miss you...be home soon...

i did a tarot reading for you...although the results are disappointing....but i choose to doubt my cards and believe that its a wrong reading...i hope miracles appear and you'll be safe....i'm still waiting for you...waiting for our reunion...be home soon...

我真的真的好想你...

Michael Jackson Dead.

LOS ANGELES (AFP) - - Pop icon Michael Jackson died Thursday after suffering a cardiac arrest, the entertainment website TMZ.com reported.

The website reported that Jackson, 50, suffered a heart attack just after 12:00 pm (1900 GMT) local time and paramedics were unable to revive him.

Jackson's manager Tohme E. Tohme was not immediately available for comment when contacted by AFP. Officials at UCLA Medical Center where Jackson was treated also could not be reached for comment.

Los Angeles Fire Department spokesman Devin Gales would not confirm Jackson's identity but said paramedics went to an address corresponding to the star's home at 12:21 pm (1921 GMT) and the person was taken to UCLA Medical Center.

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haiz...another pop star gone...tho i find him hideous looking after all those plastic surgery...i still think he is a talent...his songs practically grow up together with me....from his billie jeans to heal the world etc...i would say he is a good singer that really leaves a very deep impression in all of us...

MJ, you will forever be remembered...

missing you...

it hurts me to see you like that... i hope u can take good care of yourself when i'm not around you...i hope things will change for the better soon...so much happening within this short period..im so mentally and physically tired...pls promise me that such incident will never ever happen again....i'll wait for you...wait for our reunion...i love you...

*25/06/2009*

happy 2009 father's day...

dad...happy father's day to you....

i miss you....

=P

sorry for neglecting my blog...been kinda lazy lately...maybe due to the hot weather lolz

anyway i took one of the astrology test from facebook...and i find its so accurate...the italic, bold and coloured ones are the ones i find it true ;)

Aquarius

Emotions
Emotional experiences and dealing with emotions themselves tends to be difficult for the Aquarius. This seemingly emotional detachment is what tends to make the Aquarian appear a bit cold and remote when it comes to deeply emotional experiences. It isn't that Aquarians are unemotional people in general, it just takes them awhile to really let people into their lives. Once they let their guard down, Aquarians are very passionate and loyal people.

Ideals
As stated before, the Aquarius personality is that of a humanitarian. They have a strong desire to serve in philanthropic and charitable endeavors. Their societal beliefs are very idealistic in the sense that they believe that one of their main purposes in life is serving to benefit the greater good of mankind. It's not uncommon to see an Aquarian volunteering at the local homeless shelter or generously donating money to various charities.

Temperament
Aquarians do not like to be boxed-in. If an Aquarian feels like he or she is backed into a corner, the person committing this huge mistake will no doubt be on the receiving end of that Aquarian's temper, which can be explosive. Not only that, the typical Aquarius tends to hold onto bitter feelings and resentments. So, if you cross and Aquarius, don't expect to be welcomed back with opened arms.

Lifestyle
The Aquarian lifestyle is a little on the unconventional side because the Aquarius personality is naturally a bit rebellious and non-conformist. People born under this sign are less than thrilled with the rigidity of typical "nine-to-five" work schedules so they often hold less conventional jobs in which the schedule varies. Better yet, they choose jobs that allow them the freedom to make their own schedules and march to their own drums. Just take a look at the following famous Aquarians and you'll see what we mean.

Oprah Winfrey
Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart
Bob Marley
Charles Darwin
Abraham Lincoln
Sir Francis Bacon

nuffnang???

hmmmm.....i wanna ask...does nuffnang really works for all bloggers?

from my 1st post which is in last year august till now...its 10 months already...and i have yet to get a single ad from them...all my blogger friends mention that they had their 1st ad after about 3 months when they started blogging...is something wrong with my blog? or did i do something wrong? hahahaha

all i wanted was to earn some extra income...but it seems that nuffnang dont like me...dat explain why till now i didnt get a single ad in my blog...haiz...

when will i start earning money from my blog? can somebody pls tell me =(

(-_-")

recently i've got a couple of listing on hands...i should be happy about it as it means more business for me...but the problem is...all my on hand listing are so far away...from ang mo kio to jurong west to punggol to bedok zzzzzzzz....and im staying at redhill...just transport alone is enough to kill me...

now that i've just started...i really cannot complain too much but just do it..in real estate term...we call this district 65...it means covering all of singapore lolz...

must really jiayou...i wanna earn money and go for a break...so bored to be in s'pore...

hope i see results soon...

speedy recovery!!!

my friend, ah kiat, got into an accident again...haiz...this time was rather serious...fracture in his ribcage and leg...stitches just slightly above his lips...

silver me and isabel went to visit him today at alexandra hospital...amanda was there with him...looking at the state he is in...i can really feel the pain which he is going through now...as i have blood phobia all along and my body will go jelly upon seeing all these injure people...i feel myself feeling faint and nausea when i saw him...

i hope ah kiat will get well soon...and after this 2nd ordeal...i hope he can really take care of himself and dont let his loved ones be worried about him...

speedy recovery soon!!! xc is still waiting for u for the dragon dance training and competition!!!

poor boy =(

haiz...silver have been sick since last week...last mon he kana "feng mo" aka hives...serious hives i would say...spread through all his body...see le also makes my hair stand...he then went to see the doc and get a jab...and he recovered...

who knows...few days later...he kana high fever again (-_-")...went to the doc...take med but doesnt seems to help...so he went to a chinese physician...this time...the physician says he kana "mor tan" aka typhoid ZzZZzZzZZz

after taking the med he seems to be better...but out of a sudden tonight...his fever came back...he told me his bone is seriously in pain...i touched his body and i can really feel the heat emitted from his body...its really freaking hot...im so worried that this fever will cause him brain damage...i quickly prepare ice water and a small towel to place it on his forehead...i then tried the ancient method too...cook boil eggs and rub his body...nothing happen...he didnt get any better...he then ask me to "pull" his vein right behind his neck area...after a few pulls...he seems to be feeling better and started sweating profusely...after awhile he told me he is so much better the before...i heave a sign of relive...after the whole ordeal...now he is sleeping soundly...hopefully he will get better by tml...

one thing weird about silver is...if he dont fall sick...he will be ok all the way...but once he fall sick (which only happens once in a long time) it will definitely be a very serious one...serious to the extend that he seems to be dying...a scary sight...

anyway...i hope he can recover asap...with all these swine flu thingy going around...i dont want the whole family to be kept under quarantine hahahaha

gratz!!!!!!!

finally the dragon comp is over last night....congratulations to :

longshi - 3rd placing
cheng jing hui - 2nd placing

longshi - 最佳龙珠奖
cheng jing hui - 最佳造型奖

although the placing is misplace...i would still like to tell the boys at longshi..."you guys really did a great job last night...even tho there's a little bit of hiccups...it still was a wonderful experience...everybody knew u boys are great and did a good performance"

anyway...hope to see u boys continue striving...jiayou jiayou jiayou!!!!!!!!!!

and for me...its back to work lolz

congratz!!!!!

today is the dragon dance competition day at loyang tua pek gong temple...i would like to express my heartfelt congratulations to :

* cheng jing hui - champion for luminous dragon
* xincheng - champion for the draw lots style
* longshi - champion for the obstacles style

its a damn freaking hot day...i was very thoroughly cooked lolz...and when night falls...i had a very sever headache....so pain that i could feel my head and brain tearing apart...

reach loyang at 12.30pm today...the competition starts at 1.30pm...obstacles,speed,draw lots...the whole session finish at only 3+pm coming to 4pm...then i went back to longshi for a quick bath...went back again to loyang for the luminous dragon comp....

finally we are done for today...i would really wanna tell xc guys for doing a good job =D hope to see them back for the competition again next year...

the next oncoming comp will be on the 28th may...venue is the same at loyang TPK temple...
starts at 7.30pm...

im really shagged out today....after all the heat and the stress...i really need a good sleep...tml need to help longshi chut sai again..

for those who wish to see more of the competition clip...do check back at www.long-shi.com ...guess my bro will upload it soon...

im dead tired...to be continue again...

nitez....

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