ghost festival 2011

happy hungry ghost festival 2011 to all~~~~

somehow or rather...this occasion has become a kind of festival for all youngsters lolx....i've received hungry ghost festival greeting from my frds hahaha....generation have changed....this festival is no longer a big taboo.

i remember when i was young...i'm always freak out by this festival...heard tons of stories....cannot do this cannot do that....but now that i've grown older...this festival is just another month...sometimes i dont even remember its the month of good brothers and pass it unknowingly =)

well...im no longer that paranoid over this festival anymore...i've come to realise that the livings can actually be more scary than the dead....so...whats the big hoo ha on 7th month =)

i wish all my friends, soon soon li li in everything they do....hope all the good brothers can help protect them and their family...its afterall just a one month thingy...just enjoy it =)

不知所谓！

一，两个人对她不满，那就可能是场误会，当我周围的人都对她不满，那就说明了是她有问题！

一直以小人之心去想别人，也一直以狗眼去看别人。可悲可悲，只有自卑的人才会做的事，都被她做完了。

我说人啊，就别那么现实，不然就会失了夫人又折兵。在这个世界上，金钱不是全部，虽然没有金钱也是万万不能，但是有很多东西还是比金钱来的重要。

我们都不是戏子，没这个需要去到哪里就演到哪里，不流泪不代表不伤心，何必做到那么假，情绪上，每一个人都有他们表达的方式，不是一定要哭个稀里哗啦才算是伤心。您就别那么肤浅了吧。

我不喜欢做很多小动作的人，你有脾气，性格，我也有。我的脾气，性格也不见得会输给你。我见的世面肯定比你多，所以您就省一省，不用费心机要怎样恐吓我，我从没怕过。以前的种种，都不能把我击垮，你认为你有什么能耐能把我击垮? 钱??? 你从没给过而我也从没向你拿过，所以不要去告诉妈妈什么如果我没钱也别想你帮我，不要说到你好像有给过我钱似的，很伟大似的。不知所谓！

对于你的亲姐姐，你是怎么看她的你心理最清楚。一个连亲情都可以应为金钱而丢一边的人，可想而知这个人到底好到哪里去。抱着有钱人不会让你有钱的，别人有钱是别人的事，又不是有的分。做人要知足，想攀龙附凤，到不如行多点善希望来世生在个有钱人家。

我以前不把你放在眼里，以后也不会。我没有靠你吃饭，你就少来这副假天使脸孔。有谁不知道你是见高就拜，见低就踩的人。我没钱是我的事，我没有跟你拿所以你也没资格批评我。你算老几?

到处告诉别人我没钱啦，没用啦，把自己说到很高尚，你自己有多少两你自己最清楚，而我，最少不是一个空壳，不会把别人的屁股贴在自己脸上。我有钱，就做有钱的事，没钱，我也会安分守己。好过有的人，外表光鲜亮丽，里面却是那么丑陋。

给妈妈钱，帮妈妈付医药费，如果你认为这样做需要跟全世界的人讲，你也可以让我知道，我会帮你传，让妈妈的朋友与亲戚们都知道，你很有孝心。我没钱，没用，我也会让妈妈的朋友和亲戚们都知道，你放心，我不会打肿脸皮充胖子的，没有的我一定会说没有 =)

现在我慎重宣布，我，已经跟你没任何关系了。所以请你，也别再侵犯我的生活。你走你的阳光道，我过我的独木桥!

hong kong drama

these are the few hong kong dramas which i have been watching recently...all of them are nice...infact i have download quite alot of dramas on my lap top...will continue to watch them slowly =)

rating 4/5...nice show...of cos im watching this bcos of the male cast la lolx...so god damn handsome...the ending is really quite unexpected...i think nowadays the drama ending is not those that can be predicted ending.

once again this drama is all abt the dispute behind the forbidden city...rating 4/5...this is not bad too...their relationship inside is kinda complicated haha...then ending part also unexpected...but i dont really like the ending.

this drama is something like mind reading...actually its more on body language reading...3.5/5...i find this show abit bored bcos of the repeated reading by the male cast are almost the same....ending part also soso only...not as nice as the above 2 dramas but consider not bad la.

心情

在夜里写下自己的心情真的是别有一番风味。或许，人总是在夜晚时分才会感触特别多吧。

我和他也在不知不觉中分开了一年多。偶尔我还是会想起他的背叛，想起他的不忠。我是恨他的。。。我也时常问自己，到底要等到何时才能够彻底的放开。我想，很难吧。我想，我不可能会原谅他了。没想到，八年的爱到最后换来的竟然是怨恨。


我好想念有一个人陪在我身边的感觉，有人嘘寒问暖的感觉，有人重视我的感觉。。。但是这一切似乎离我好远。我在寻找的那个他，到底在哪里? 他，真的存在吗?

这一个月多来发生的事，真是多到让人很疲惫。我也好像一直在于某某人开战。感觉好累。但是妈妈的康复也让我很开心，最起码，她还在我身边。。。

现在的我，什么都不要紧，我只希望能有多点摄影的工作，赚多些钱，与自己最爱的人一起去旅游，我的妈妈，女儿，好朋友。。。其它的，已经不再重要了。

虽然我没有了我的好兄弟，虽然在龙狮界里我也已属于半退休状态，不想在参与，能庆幸的是，我还有几个死党，他们的不离不弃，我真的很感谢。

不知道未来的我会是怎样的，但是我相信，再多的困难也难不倒我。就好像我的朋友所说的，我是一个坚强的女人，身经百战，走过了那么多，经历了那么多，想把我击倒，已经不再是件容易的事了。

我身边的亲人，只剩下妈妈与女儿了。希望她们能够出入平安，身体健康。也希望我最亲爱的朋友能事事如意，天天开心。我，别无所求了。。。

arrggghhhh bored!!!

bored die me sia....been watching hongkong drama online recently....my tv wire somehow drop out and i just cant fix it back thus no tv for me =(

today im kinda happy hahaha....cos just when i thot im dying...a very sweet hope came to me lolz...not gonna mention here in case some 小人 saw and decided to take advantage from it...so it shall only be shared only to my close buddies =D

my mama is getting so much better...and her memories are coming back slowly...she's even beginning to ask for her stuffs like her atm cards,bank book and valuables....happy~ and im so so happy that she is still so concern about isabel and me hahahaha

the physios are trying their best to make her walk....and im pretty sure that she will improve day by day...

im seriously smiling within me *giggles* anybody know why? hahahaha

mama's better!!!

mama's getting better...so much better hahaha...but date of her discharge is still unknown yet =D

hmmm....actually i dunno what to blog about....other than visiting the hospital everyday from 12pm to 2pm....the rest of the timing im mostly at home....ask me why i didnt go in the evening again...well...just bcos im not interested in clash meetup with xxxxxx....talking about this...a kid is a kid hahaha....removing me from family wont kills me....how about deleting me off from facebook hahahaha....c'mon la...its just a cyber web...if by doing this can make me younger and slimmer...pls by all means go ahead =)

tmd...now i got a splitting headache...i wanna go sleep alrdy...to be continue =D

new experience!

finally!!! i had my first wedding shooting experience on last monday which is the 11/07/2011...with alot of thks to lionel who got me this job lobang...and with his loan on his dslr 550D...i went ahead with this job....was so afraid i couldnt do a good job....but thks god everything turns out fine =D

the people from both sides were nice and friendly....i guess bcos im a girl ba...easier to mingle with them thus make the job easier lolxxx...it was fun but tiring...but upon seeing how happy the whole day and people was...i guess everything is worthwhile =)

dear readers who are reading my blog...i have started a page in facebook on my photography job....please kindly help me by liking Carol's Photography , your help is greatly appreciated =)

not forgetting if any of you have photography lobang, do kindly intro me too hahaha....thanks alot

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now to the update of my mum...she have just been transferred to alexandra hospital this afternoon....no doubt she is at alexandra hosp...but the docs and nurses attending to her are from sgh....she's being transfer over is also bcos the rehab at alexandra is more well equipped....i guess date of my mum being discharge is drawing nearer....i really need to get more income in...hopefully she will improve more and more....as in can walk and sit by herself...memory gain back too....meanwhile i can only hope to get more freelance job like photography and save as much as i can....god pls bless mummy with speedy recovery....

shock!

kinda shock upon realising some of the things that had take place....wenli and weicheng...kahwai and meiwei...this 2 couples have been together for so long le and now they are all on their own....upon seeing these...i suddenly realise...there might really be no true love in this world...everything got to end eventually....

somehow or rather...after being single for the past 6 mths...i still dont have the urge to get a bf...although there are times when i get lonely...no one to talk to, no one to show concern abt me, no one for me to miss etc etc...but thinking back on the heartache and stuffs when one is attached just kinda puts me off....

haiz...will i ever get someone who is really meant to be mine? im real tired....

movies/dramas

rating 4/5...storyline kinda nice....love the men inside this movie...one is so charming the other is so loyal to love haha...recommend to watch...its a love movie and i catch it from funshion =)

rating 3.5/5...i still prefer 2012...storyline of this show also not bad la...but not as good as 2012 where it brings u to the peak of the show and make u kan cheong for them...overall still consider an ok movie...caught it from funshion too =)

rating 3/5...this hong kong drama is a comedy....its about the rivalry of the princesses, queen and concubines....storyline so so...can watch if u r bored =)
caught it from funshion too..

rating 2.5/5...slow story....but this girl is pretty =)
hmmm...i would say this movie is just average...lucky i didnt spend money watching in cinema lolx....caught it in funshion =)

worst NDP song i have ever heard

FML! this is the worst NDP song i have ever heard of in my life...i dont understand how could the goverment actually allow this kind of lame and stupid song to be use on our country birthday...its a total shame!!!!! we have so many good song writers and yet this is what they are using on NDP zzzzzzzzzz....OBJECTION!!!!! OBJECTION!!!!! OBJECTION!!!!

IT IS A TOTAL FAILURE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha

sorry for the long absence...no mood to blog recently...reason being im sick =)

just had a very bo liao argument with someone bo liao...she call me an actress...say i act filial...its a joke lor...do i even have to act?? i dont act im still the apple of my mum's eye...unlike her...got to fight for attention....well...gossip me for all u want...i cant be bothered...like i've mention before...i only have my mum and isabel as my kin in this world...period!

come bombard me with all things like im eyeing my mum's money and stuff..i wonder who is the one that have been opening and closing her mouth and say about money...keep saying no money but can afford to buy so many branded...ridiculous...its a world joke lor lolzzz

haiz..sad case...keep saying give my mum money and stuff...i thot its right? why would she even need to go around telling people what she did???? showing how filial she is? showing how good she is??? i wonder who is acting here hahahaha

yes i never gave money to mum...never bring her shopping at branded shops....never bring her go restuarant eat....so??? ahhh so u did...perhaps i could help by announcing at the newpapers or strait times or maybe even wanbao or xinming lolx

im born into this world not to entertain you! i dont even have to answer to u what i did or what i didnt do! u r the one who injected to mum's head that i will send her to old folk's home...fuck you!!! dont treat my kindness as weakness...i didnt say anything doesnt mean im afraid of u...didnt confront u also doesnt mean i dont dare...dont ever try to be funny and stuff words into my mouth! pcb! the whole world knows what kind of person you are...so save the act of being an angel...the people who are smiling at you does not means they are ur good friends or relatives...u never know what they are talking abt behind ur back...i just find u a pathetic soul...seriously...they just show me how much u r worth in their eyes lolx

i have never like confrontation all along...but push me any further then im sorry...

im not a hypocrite...nor am i an actress....i just do whichever i like...i dont need ppl acknowledgement nor do i need anybody approval....i just do what im happy with...if you think ur comments can pull me down...then happy daydreaming =)