money cleared

so damn freaking cold these few days....weather is going hay wired already...have been raining non stop for the past few days...yesterday went for my lion dance event and i was drenched from morning 8am till night time 9pm zzzzzz...from wet to dry to wet to dry to wet to dry again and again =_="....reason for that was because i was sitting behind the lorry with the tentage on the cover top leaking water hahaha....so in short it means got shelter like no shelter lolz....but throughout the whole event, it was fun and interesting especially with my kakis...laughter was filled for the whole day lolz..we had so much fun =D

well..the latest update...he had already pass the monies he owe me to my friend, robert, today...my 1k sgd plus the rm240 he owe for the selling of longshi.com tees...my plan had to be aborted...hmmm...was kinda in a dilemma...wanted the monies back and yet im also hoping i can post up the notice too...anyway i have to keep my promise now that he paid me...the notice i've prepared will be delete off...i shall have nothing more to do with him...i wish him all the best in his outside world...hopefully he have learn to play smart and stop hurting those who really love him...i wish all his future girlfriends the best of luck too...

calvin, no one can be lucky for their whole life through...every human in this world have their nemesis....do not think that all people owes you anything...treasure your friends and not make use of them...not every single ones of your friends are making use of you...you will lose out alot more if you keep having that kind of thinking...the women who loves you...they really loves you with all their heart...quit playing all these selfish game...save them from the hurt and heartaches...i always believe what goes around comes around...i really hope after this lesson...you can learn to be smarter and more sincere in treating others....from now onwards...i shall have nothing more to do with you...i wish you all the best...sincerely....please take care...

curse this mother fucker

chance upon this POST in facebook...this mother fucker actually abuse this helpless dog for nothing...i guess he must be a real pervert...dear friends of mine or whoever is reading this post of mine...pls kindly help to spread the words and lets get this fucker his deserved punishment!

各位朋友们，麻烦你们。。。请帮我分享这个 http://www.facebook.com/seetcarol/posts/125074404229674?notif_t=like#!/album.php?aid=260441&id=262947298154&fbid=489163743154 ，他就是虐待那只贵妇狗的杂种。让我们协力把他交给有关当局处置吧， 谢谢!

his facebook

his infos :

根据爆料者的透露~那比魔鬼还要魔鬼的车牌号码是NBC 8313 (wira),经常会出入oug green par!!!请帮忙分享消息出去!!!谢谢~

according to the informer...his car plate number is NBC 8313 (WIRA) and he is always spotted at OUG GREEN PAR...please help to spread the words..

happy birthday to me~

happy birthday to me~ happy birthday to me~ happy birthday to carol~ happy birthday to me~

am so happy tonight...received 80 over greeting from my friends in facebook...am expecting it to increase hahaha...im so touched =)

no special celebration this year..went drinking with my kakis last sat at M bar follow by hollywood and end up i went off in a almost drunken mode hahaha...thks aminah for the arrangement and thks all my dear friends who attended =D

my wish for this year is to be happy...i want lots of money too hahaha...then follow by get my mr right! i wanna go oversea too~ be it for work or leisure...simple hor lolz...

must pray for me yea! huat ar!!! heng ar!!!

=D

p/s: as im typing these post...i've prepare a cup of hot ipoh white coffee along with some cream crackers and accompanied by so many best wishes from all my friends from facebook...what more can i ask for =)

shiok...tooth remove

been suffering since 1 week plus ago from my toothache...due to my lacking of sleep...too much alcohol...lack of water consumption...the toothache was very fast back up by swollen gums....imagine i cant eat properly...cant sleep due to headache cause by the toothache...cant close my jaws zzzzzzzzzz...it was a torture lor...

finally today i decided to go to the dentist....simply bcos i found pus in my gum "ouch!"...my gum is swollen and red...i've got an infection!!!!!...i know very well if i still dont remove that tooth...the swelling will never goes down...

the dentist gave me a jab on my gum..i thot it wasnt going to hurt when he pluck but fuck lor...the pain is so much that it travels up to my brain and gave me a bad headache immediately...the dentist then explain saying...since my gum is swollen and having an infection...the jab cant help much in relieving pain =_=" well...but at least it was removed...and im feeling shiok except for the headache now and swollen gum...worse thing is..i got to wait till the bleeding stops which is about half an hour to one hour later then i can take the antibiotic and painkiller....but now as im typing...the pain is getting lesser and lesser...everything's gonna be ok soon lolz...i can eat anything i want soon!!!! hahaha

sibei song now!!! my stupid toothache is gone!!!!!!

things is taking a turn...everyday i've been receiving more and more of the misdeeds which he have done...stealing of lion heads...stealing of handphones...stealing of lorry....borrowing money from ppl...using other ppl names and start ordering stuff but never pay up etc etc...its kinda shocking for me honestly...how on earth could this man continue doing all these for the past few years...count himself lucky? cos till now he is still running around scot free and repeating all these stuffs...what the hell...

and the best of all is.....there's still alot of women who is willing to help him...perhaps bcos he is consider not bad looking ba...and he's obviously making good use of these to con the girls...as for the guys which got shit from him...is either bcos they treat him as friend or simply bcos of some reputable ppl name which he've use to create more credibilty for himself...

haiz...why didnt he just learn? why must he stoop to this level and be a loser..why dont he feel anything when ppl all around is saying him...thick skin? i guess so...really cant believe such person exist in this world...

im awaiting the day of 2nd feb to arrive...if by then i still dont receive any payment from him to myself, my shifu and ah gao...i swear im gonna make things real ugly...

calvin hong! if u are still reading my blog...make fucking sure we receive the payment on time as u've said...dont even think of entertaining us by promising to pay and end up u disappear...to comb you down in malaysia is an easy task for us...im sure u know what we are capable of...dont even have the thoughts that we will let matter rest...it will not be over till u settle everything...my 1k sgd before cny...my shifu and ah gao stuff by lunar 1st or 2nd day...we wont be so nice to just post on fb and chase u again...dont forget...singapore and malaysia are not that far...dont force us to use the unwanted method on you! so u better be smart and pay up everything!

if u think we are joking...fucking come try us!

memories

its just so amazing how life can be...looking back at the paths i've took...so much happenings...i've grown from a little girl who thinks the world is kind and peaceful to a woman who finds that life is so contradicting and complicated...been thru so much that at times i'm really wondering am i a superwoman hahahaha...i would not say i have regrets for my past...well...my past actually made me to what i am today...kinda thankful to those whom have hurt me and make me stronger...without them i guess i will just be another innocent girl who thinks life is a bed of roses =)

its always when things happen that u get to see who are your friends...im really happy i got them in my life...really appreciate the concern and care i have from them....i guess friendship still matters more than love...i love u guys!!! =D

hopefully the start of lunar rabbit year is gonna be a good one for me....wishing all my loved and closed ones in the pink of health, wishing them prosperity in whatever they do...to hell they go for those bastards, lamers and arseholes who have hurt my dear ones and me...karma is awaiting u lolz

last but not least....thanks all who have been there for me =)

I Love You~

cheated feeling

hmmm....for those who have my face book...i guess you must have seen the "war" we are having inside...well...it really take me a long time to decide should i take this step and declare war with him...i have to say this "war" we are having now has got nothing to do with the breaking up...its not bcos we ended and out of hatred I'm doing this now...the reason of me doing this is simply bcos i find him unrepentable over his doing...he dont seems to even have that little bit of guilt over what he've done...the argument i saw from his replies...the haughty feeling i get from his post...its just so unbelievable...just what is wrong with this man here? i really dont understand how come till now he can still feel himself doing the right thing and dont give a damn on what's going on...i find him pathetic in a way...

i didnt wish to blew up this matter in fact...but bcos of one of his post...it just sets me fuming mad that i've even change my mind on the sponsorship...i want him to know...he cant just get away everytime he did something bad or wrong...im aint no angel....but i think its time he suffer from his misdeed....but i guess he just never learn.

anyway, by hook or by crook i have to get back the money...i need to answer to my mum about it..its not being fair to her thats she's being drag in..its my fault...im really blind to be helping him all along....after all the hurt he've done to me...i guess i wont ever forgive him again.

last but not least...im really glad i had all my friends with me...im really touched by how they stand by me....i really wanna thanks them for the love and care...especially my bro, kalvin ling. =)

thank you all my dear friends! i love all of you! <3

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i just realise...all these while im a fool...for believing in whatever he say...now then i know...dat goi wai yee which he like is actually the 果伊 in his facebook....to think that he told me he and 果伊 will never be...hahaha..its just so sarcastic....anyway it doesnt really matter anymore....just find myself stupid...things happen right before my eyes and yet i still dunno =)

別再為他流淚

Robert ask me...what is my life way before i met him...i recalled back...and realise that 5 months ago..i was filled with happiness...busy with my hobby and loving all the times spend with my friends...Robert then ask me again...possible for me to travel back to 5 months ago...thoughts start running thru my mind...and i knew i can do it =)

now that I'm much calmer, more peaceful...looking back at what I've done...looking back at what happen...all the while I'm so blinded by love...so blinded that i even neglect what my friends are trying to tell me...what my heart is trying to say too...i even neglected all the tell tale signs which are showing...

I've lost my smile for so many months...I've overwork my eyes by making them teared so often....I'm tiring my heart by making it ache...I'm killing my brain too for always thinking of the impossible...

today i came across a very meaningful Chinese song...its all about not crying for the man who is not worth your tears...after listening...i just put myself into the song, the lyrics..the feeling is just so amazing...i would like to share this song with whichever women who are still enstrangle by their troubled relationship..i hope this song helps =)



你走了太久一定很累
他錯了不該你來面對
離開他就好就算了
心情很乾脆
他其實沒有那麼絕對
遠一點你就看出真偽
離開他不等於你的世界會崩潰
轉個彎你還能飛

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽
他不值得你的淚
把那遺憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後為自己醉

每段感情都非常珍貴
他的好你就放在心扉
記得有個人曾讓你那樣的心醉

你笑了照亮夜幕的黑
什麼夢都不比你的美
多少年以後想起他還有些體會
那些你已無所謂

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽他不值得你的淚
把那遺憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後為自己醉

就別再為他流淚
別再讓他操控你的傷悲
就算有一點愚昧一點點後悔
也不要太狼狽

他不值得你的淚
把那遺憾留在大雨的街
你曾在迷失的旅途中盲目追
以後管他是誰

finally im back to sg...as per the previpus trip..i left KL with a very down mood...and its all thanks to my ex - calvin hong

hmmm....for those who understand chinese, im sure you would have read my previous post and knew whats happening...for those who dont understand...in short...it means i've known a man whom i loved alot and now left him because i realise i've been used all these while.

ask me if i regretted..i would say nope...i always believe that whatever u do for a person..its all done willingly...so there's nothing to be regret of...during these 4 months plus i'm with him...from heaven i've drop to hell...from being in love till i'm out of love...it was really a splendid experience....never in my life have i thought i would meet this kinda man =)

well...i'm not gonna curse him or whatever in this post of mine...all i can say is....i really thanks him for doing all those stuffs to me...thanks him for giving me a chance to realise ppl like him does exist in this world...thanks him for helping me make up my mind in leaving this hell...i would really love to take this chance to tell his future girlfriend(s)...

CHOK DEE NA KA!

=)

爱上一个不该爱的人

我爱上了一个男人，一个我一直以为会是我最后的一个男人。而他也曾经对我说，一定是的。。

这是我们的故事，我想，也将会是我们的回忆。

我们相遇在槟城，因为舞狮比赛而认识，正当我以为我们的缘分会在槟城画上一个句点，怎知我错了，一切才刚要开始。

从槟城，到321，到一日游，，到把车钥匙锁在车里，那点点滴滴都留下了好多回忆。那时的我也在不知不觉中对他有了好感。各自都回国时，我一直都按耐着不发简讯给他，原因只是不想是我自己会错意。而他，竟然给了我一个意外的惊喜，我收到了他的简讯。=）

就这样的我们一直保持联系，从sms到msn，我们开始了这一段恋情。

“好甜噢”是我当时的感觉，听着他对我说的一切，听着他为我们的未来打算，听着他说要和我拥有自己的baby，听着他叫我bebe kuan,听着他叫我“老婆”，听着他说他想我，听着他说想见我。。。这一切有多贴心。

或许快乐真的不可能长久，我们应为一些事而分手了，是我提的。一直都以为我可以很洒脱的放手，可以把他给忘了。可是当我把他的东西都交还给他时，我的心竟然痛了起来，那种舍不得，那种不想失去的痛。我知道我真的放不下，我还是很爱他，所以我尽我所能的挽回这一段情，我知道我也是有错，伤了他也伤了自己。我不介意放下我的尊严，放下我的面子，我只知道，我要挽回。结果我成功的留住这段情，但我想，我走错了这一步。

事后，我发现这感情好像变了质，一切已不再像从前，老婆，bebe kuan，想你，爱你。。。这些字眼已不再出现。没有每日的通话，没有了每日的问候，更没有了那以前他每天都给我的甜蜜。

日子一天一天的过，情况也越来越槽，有些时候我连人也找不到，我开始问自己，到底发生了什么事，为什么他可以不听我的电话，不回我的简讯，他就好像人间蒸发，不知所踪。我不知道我到底处在什么位置。

近来，我又到KL去找他，一个多月没见面了，我好想他，可惜我这一趟并不是快乐的，终于都把话摊开来了。我又在一次受伤，而这一次，是彻彻底底的伤了=（

我开始恨我自己，为什么要这样让自己受伤害，为什么要那么执著，为什么要那么固执，为什么一次又一次了我还不愿觉悟。为什么非要搞到自己体无完肤才高兴。为什么？？？ 原因就只是应为“我爱他”。。。

我撑得好累，我爱的好痛，我没有了自尊，没有了主见。但是我从来都没有后悔过。

在爱情里，根本就没有谁对谁错，没有所谓的值不值得，我爱过，我从不想轻易的放手，不到最后的关头我都不会放弃，这样的性格是好是坏？

翰，我想现在在说些什么都没用了，当你坦诚的对我说，你的心已经不在我这里，我就知道一切都太迟了。当你在facebook写着你思念着另一个人时，我明白我已彻彻底底的输了。

看着你对别的女人温柔，看着你每天和别的女人通简讯，看着你每天期待着她的回音，看着你每天睡在我身边但是心却不再我身上，你可知道那有多伤我吗？ 这一些你现在给她的曾经都是我的不是吗？而我已失去了拥有这一切的权利。心好痛。。。

我想我会逼自己把你放下，不管我愿不愿意，不管有多痛，不管舍不舍得，我已经失去了你的心，在坚持也没用了，结果只会把自己搞得更伤。我会尽力把你在我的生命里删除。我想这一切也是你想我做的。我还是爱你，但这毕竟是我自己一厢情愿。这一趟我回新加坡，我想我不会再回来了。我只想把我们美好的回忆留着，我只想把你曾经给我的温柔和甜蜜带走。我宣布。。。我退出，我把你要的自由都还给你。

有一种爱叫做放手。。。我爱了。。。