10th day

its the 10th day already...still no news yet...wonder how is he now...i bet he must be missing home...missing all his friends,family too...i miss him dearly...

will i get any news tomorrow? i want but im scare...scare what im getting is bad news...i hope the news im getting is good one...have been feeling im on tenderhooks for the past 1 week...when can i be at ease...

life without him really makes a big difference...no one to nag at me...no one calling me asking "what are you doing?" "where are you?"...nobody to kiss me goodnight before i sleep...no one to disturb isabel...etc etc...suddenly the whole house just seems so quiet...its a scary feeling...i just have the feeling im being abandon =(

haiz...its just all fated...if going in for a few months can exchange back his freedom...i would be happy for him too...hope that he will sincerely change once he's out...im willing to forgive him again for breaking the trust i had in him...for breaking my heart times and again...

during the days when he was not around...memories of our past came flocking back to me...the arguements, the happiness...the sweet and the bad times...i miss him...

there are times when i just feel like letting go...but its really not easy...its afterall a solid 7 years relationship we had...other then him having those bad habits which i detest...he is really good to me...

i pray that he will not disappoint those who loved and concern about him again...pray that he knows how to treasure everything once he's back...i pray that he will be fine...