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Monday, April 26, 2010

friendship


what is your definition on "friend"?

often i find this word "friend" being badly abuse...you can call someone your friend when you have know that person for years or maybe even a few hours...isnt friend suppose to be those kind whom can stick with you thru thick and thin...share happiness and unhappiness with you etc....why are we even calling those hi and bye people our friends?

i'm someone who love to socialise...i have many friends...including those whom i can really talk to...hi and bye kind...even those whom i hardly even remember who they are....

i do not have a best friend...neither do i believe in one....i have my fair share of betrayal when i decided to trust someone....i guess true friends dont really exist in this world....

the saddest part of a human life...is when you cant trust anybody....i deeply believe i'm someone who is not fated to have a human as a friend....perhaps its my character....not much people can stand my straight forward attitude hahaha....whenever i'm trying to be straight and pass certain message to anybody...they will feel i'm being crude or worse....thought i'm stirring shit...but i'm seriously not....i hate having to be cautious on how i speak and act...i hate having to act as miss nice...i hate having to think carefully before i talk....why do we have to go thru so much trouble just to talk? i do understand certain things can really hurt if we just come straight with it...but all along i thought that kinda behaviour is only use on people we are not really familiar with....why is it that i have to use this fake acts towards my friends? its just so damn tiring....having to be wary of people around me...having to be wary of how my words are gonna affect them...sad isnt it?

i do envy people who does have their best friend with them....my definition of "friend" are someone whom we can be with in our real self....someone whom i dont have to act to....someone who will not judge me for my mistakes...someone whom i can really fall back on...but is there such a someone that exist? i guess i've gave up trying to find one...cos when i found one and started to put my trust in her....things just happen....betrayal just slit my heart like a knife....it hurts....or maybe its just my judgement....failure to recognise who are the true friends....

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