friendship

what is your definition on "friend"?

often i find this word "friend" being badly abuse...you can call someone your friend when you have know that person for years or maybe even a few hours...isnt friend suppose to be those kind whom can stick with you thru thick and thin...share happiness and unhappiness with you etc....why are we even calling those hi and bye people our friends?

i'm someone who love to socialise...i have many friends...including those whom i can really talk to...hi and bye kind...even those whom i hardly even remember who they are....

i do not have a best friend...neither do i believe in one....i have my fair share of betrayal when i decided to trust someone....i guess true friends dont really exist in this world....

the saddest part of a human life...is when you cant trust anybody....i deeply believe i'm someone who is not fated to have a human as a friend....perhaps its my character....not much people can stand my straight forward attitude hahaha....whenever i'm trying to be straight and pass certain message to anybody...they will feel i'm being crude or worse....thought i'm stirring shit...but i'm seriously not....i hate having to be cautious on how i speak and act...i hate having to act as miss nice...i hate having to think carefully before i talk....why do we have to go thru so much trouble just to talk? i do understand certain things can really hurt if we just come straight with it...but all along i thought that kinda behaviour is only use on people we are not really familiar with....why is it that i have to use this fake acts towards my friends? its just so damn tiring....having to be wary of people around me...having to be wary of how my words are gonna affect them...sad isnt it?

i do envy people who does have their best friend with them....my definition of "friend" are someone whom we can be with in our real self....someone whom i dont have to act to....someone who will not judge me for my mistakes...someone whom i can really fall back on...but is there such a someone that exist? i guess i've gave up trying to find one...cos when i found one and started to put my trust in her....things just happen....betrayal just slit my heart like a knife....it hurts....or maybe its just my judgement....failure to recognise who are the true friends....

puppy mill

for those who have take notice of recent news will know abt the 75 dogs rescued from the puppy mill in pasir ris, singapore....i do really hope people who are looking to buy any puppies from the farm or pet shop to stop awhile and read up on puppy mill before they make any decision....puppy mill doesn't just exist in other countries...it happen right in our own country too...look at the condition the puppies parents are in and you will see how heart breaking it is....being bred over and over and over again just for humans own selfish acts....making profits out of them without sparing a thought for their health and living conditions...

currently the 75 dogs are all treated at the vet for their health...they will be put up for adoption soon once the vet gives a green light to their checkup....you can help too....whether its giving a donation, helping to adopt, helping to foster or even helping to spread the words....

the below pics you are looking at now is taken from the puppy mill....are you are you can pretend you've never seen this pic before and continue supporting those pet shops and farms? are you sure you are still going to ask "how much is that doggie in the window?" are you sure you are going to be oblivious about your puppy parentage?








you definitely can help create awareness...by telling people about puppy mills, by advising them to adopt instead of buy....no doubt puppies are adorable....but by buying from unlicensed breeders you are also helping them to deprive the others on their right to live....buy a puppy from a pet store, and you'd sentenced his parents to a lifetime imprisonment behind bars at the puppy mill....not forgetting too the chances of a shelter dog being rehome again is getting lesser by one....

click on this link http://dogmilllrehomers.blogspot.com/2010/04/dogmillrehomers-help-save-75-dogs.html to read more about them....should you wish to make any donation....pls kindly double check and confirm before you transfer any money over...their official email address is dogmillrehomers@hotmail.com

if you are interested in adopting or foster any one of the dogs...pls kindly call Derrick at 83833714 or text 9622 3027...do note that there are NO PUPPIES up for adoption....all the dogs there are "used" dogs, many have been traumatized or hurt, are sick and in need of a lot of nursing/nurture/care....advance appointment have to be made before you can go visit the dogs too....


REMEMBER: This is the ugly industry that you will be supporting if you purchase a puppy from the petshop.



partial extraction from http://dead-cockroach.xanga.com/725924077/seventy-five/

overwhelming triedness

have been out these few nights with my kakis bcos one of my oversea friend is here in singapore...basically every night drinking session haha....its been ages since i last drank and seriously my limit for holding liquor is getting lower and lower...suppose to go out tonight again to mustafa with them but im really too tired to go anywhere...somemore they are meeting real late....decide to have a good rest tonight....he will be going back to hong kong on wednesday so prolly tml i will meet up with them again to bring him out....will be resting early tonight im sure...need to replenish my beauty sleep lolz

friends??????

to think i treat u as my friend....to think i tell u everything....yet i was being betrayed! you and you!!! i swear in my life im not gonna get involve in ur matters again....whether i see ur other half fucking around outside or taking whatever rubbish....i swear to myself i will never ever tell again....treat u as my friend, feel the injustice done to you, feel its unfair to you...but what have i gain? no thank you nevermind.....i get back stabbed once things goes back into place again....WTF??? and you! everytime have prob with ur other half...u come over and seek for help....i seriously dont need u to pass any message to my bf on what i've told u...its just bcos i treat u as a good friend...someone whom i can trust thats why i be frank with you in my words....but what have u done??? tell him what i say....tell him things which shouldnt be told...the thing didnt happen at all right???? so what if i go clubbing??? anything to do with u??? dont always assume cos assume means it makes an ass out of u and me....im seriously hating both of u.....no wonder ppl always say women are hard to get along with....just when i thought i can really treat you and you as my friends...this happen...thank you for letting me see things clearly now....all i can say now is....you and you deserve what you're going thru now....i call that retribution....serve u right!!!! and fuck off from my life!!!! i dont need lamers around me!!!!!!

friends....

was chatting with elaine on facebook....memories of the past came flowing back to me....our happy times in sentosa cable car working together....the fun we had....but....it will never ever happen again....all bcos of a petty and scheming man haiz.....and it all happen 10 years ago....kinda miss all my friends there.....although all of us have venture off to another journey and work place...its still nice to see them once again and rekindled all those old times....i really miss all my friends...carol, frankie, eeling, elaine and jane....hope to meet up soon =)

dream job

hmmm....its always aint easy to get a job of your liking...my prefer job is very much different from others i would say...my mum always nag at me too for choosing jobs which is consider "cold" in the trade lolz....

most of the ladies i know would prefer to dress nice nice and sit in an aircon room doing admin, clerk, accountant kinda work....but i'm never interested in that...i hate boring jobs...i hate to be confine in an office for the whole 8-9 hours....i still remember the longest office job i've ever held was 3 months hahahaha...the shortest was actually half day =P

my most preferred and dream job would be working with the animals....and i dont just mean cats or dogs...i mean work with big animals like those you see in the zoo....i regretted for not studying hard and graduate with a cert to pursue my dream...if not i'm sure i'll get and graduate with a zoology cert or veterinarian cert....haiz...

over the years i've work with the zoo, sentosa animal unit....and i must admit i enjoy the job very much....i left the zoo was bcos at the time they feel my english didnt have the foreign accent so they rejected me without giving me time to polish up =/, left sentosa animal unit was bcos of some villain in there trying his best to get me out...frankly speaking...i miss all those animals which i've taken care of before....now that i'm out looking for a job again...how i wish i can go back to them...but well.... anyway, i've send in a few application to some place, i really hope they will get back to me...if they do...then chances of me working with the animals again will be back....but this time round...i wont choose show presenting again lease they start complaining i dont have the accent when im not even an ang mo hahahaha.....the job i chose this time round are mainly taking care of the animals...from assistant veterinarian to animal handler.....wish me good luck =D

another job of my liking is tour guiding...be it inbound or outbound....i love meeting new people everyday....learning all the new cultures from different countries....a pity i didnt save up enough for the guide course thus i cant really proceed further in this trade....moreover singapore agencies only wanted those with license to lead the tours....so chances of me getting a tour guiding job is equal to zero....haiz...

well well well...enough said....i do hope the resumes i've send in didnt get deleted....i hope they can really get back to me asap too....i'm keeping my finger cross =)

lazy

been rather lazy to blog about anything...recently have been bz meeting up with my friends and also keeping a lookout for my prefer job....last friday went steamboat at chinatown follow by ten dollar club for karaoke session with my friends....saturday midnight meet up my long-shi.com kakis for a road trip to seremban, malaysia....my bro drive one car and i drove another....dunno is it bcos both are sport car or we are driving too fast...we actually took less than 3 hours to reach seremban hahaha...fyi seremban is after melaka but before KL....imagine 7 of us went...and all went without sleep....follow by next day which is sunday traditional lion dance competition...basically a few of us are not watching at all bcos the weather's damn freaking hot...end up i drove out with minmin, qiang and long nu to the town area for some aircon blowing lolz....we went off after the competition finish, stopping by at kangkar pulai for our dinner....i manage to reach home at 10+ pm....shagged out....quickly took a shower, feed my dogs and cat, dry my hair and i collapse on my bed....really enjoy my trip with them....am really looking forward to the next trip with them which is on May and July....hopefully by then if i get a job, my off days can be arrange....

lost wallet

my hubby call me earlier on...told me he lost his wallet....he is very sad now as all his important cards are inside.....moreover the LV wallet which i bought for him years ago is still in good condition...he ask me will anybody return him his wallet? they can have the money inside but he want his wallet and stuff back....hmmm.....i told him unless that person who pick up is not those real greedy kind la....take the money and return everything untouched....told him he can only wait now to see will anybody send his stuff back to him....i also feel sad lor....the wallet i save for quite sometimes liao buy for him de...haiz....nevermind ba....just hope that a kind person will pick it up and mail back to him...

came across a very meaningful article....do read through and understand what love is all about......

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
他说：“这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”

你可能觉得难过
因为无论你对他怎么好他都不领情
他不是看不到
他只是装作看不到
或者他根本不想看到
你觉得自己很喜欢他
甚至觉得再没有一个人可以像你那么喜欢他
你用尽全力对他好
把他看的比自己还重要
有什么事情第一个就想到他

联系不到他的时候你担心他担心的快疯了
然而你有没有想过
这并不在你的责任范围
而且很有可能他是在躲着你
他受不了你对他那么好
不要一直发短信给他
不要一直找他
你也许只是想找他说说话
你觉得那很正常不算苛求
但是也许他并不这么想

记住你的想法不代表他的想法
你是真的不求回报的在喜欢他吗
你扪心自问一下
你确定不用他回报什么吗
那为什么你会难过
若是真的一无所求
你又怎么会觉得难过呢
所以别觉得你那么爱他是伟大的
也许她根本不在乎你怎么为他付出
有时候你给他的爱或许是种负担

这种负担只会让他更加想远离你
因为他不想亏欠你
别事事为他担心为他张罗
你觉得他没有你不行
你觉得别人做不到你那么完善
但是你要清楚
你不是他要的那个人
你做的再完善也敌不过人家不做
自然会有人为他担心为他着急
不用你来费心

那个位置本来就不是你的
你何必硬要挤上去呢
也许曾经你们是相爱过的
但是请记住那是曾经
过去的就是过去了
如果大家真的适合在一起
那么当初就不会分开
无论是谁提的分手都一样
这段感情曾经就是存在破裂点的
不管是谁错结果都是一个你们分开了

分开以后
如果一方试图想挽回而另一方没有同意的话
那么这段感情就是过去了
他是理智的因为他已经明白了两个人不适合
而你还一遍一遍的告诉自己
你们当初如何如何相爱
不可能那么容易就分手的
这样只会让你更加难以放弃
却不会让对方再次回头选择你
除非大家都有意要和好

否则你一个巴掌是不可能拍响的
所以尽早打消这个念头吧
至于他是不是有意我想你自己心里比谁都明白
不要觉得自己有多可怜或者把自己弄的很可怜
这样做一点意思也没有
他不会因为你可怜而喜欢你
你说道理你都懂只是你做不好
不是你做不好是你不想做
你不是怕忘记他你是怕他忘了你吧
别说什么他离不开你的

其实分明就是你离不开他
他若是离不开你
他就不会不要你
整天死死巴着人家不放的人是你
不懂事的人是你
难道你没看出来吗
喜欢他不是你的错
想关心他不是你的错
控制不住自己不是你的错
但是那是你的方式

傻孩子．
忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
那些．都已是记忆．
缺失并不可怕．
可怕的．是无法面对．

傻孩子．
勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
这也是你．成长中的你．
这个你．正在逐渐死去．
新的你．即将重生．
找寻你的路．你的未来．
你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

傻孩子．
你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
那里．有你的理想．

傻孩子．
开始新的习惯吧．
习惯．早上不再有人工闹铃．
习惯．每天一个人生活．
习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
现实是．她已离开．一切．画上了句点．

傻孩子．
好．好．尽情发泄吧．
剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
泄完了．就要振作．
看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
所以．你并不孤独．
正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

傻孩子．
别哭．别再哭．
不值得．真的．不值得了．
把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

傻孩子．
所有的人都对你有信心．
所以．你也要充满信心．
你是坚强的．积极的．乐观的．洒脱的．
以前是．以后也会是．
总有一天．那个活力无穷傻气无尽的女金刚会复活．

傻孩子．
生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
现在的生活．不是你想要的．
为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．

现在我对你很好、很好、很好,
你不需要、你无所谓、你不在乎，你不珍惜。。。。
当某天，你被伤害，想起我。
那时的我再也做不到像现在这样一如既往、不顾一切的对你好了。。。
因为那时的我，已经将你放低。。。。

原来，放低一个人，最后是被对方逼出来的。。。。
其实这个世界，真的没有非要谁不可，
走自己的路，别回头

Movie - Clash Of The Titans

went to watch this show at great world city with serene, douglas, peiyi, weijun, jeremy, felicia and yong ping...movie starts at 12am sharp...in my opinion this is a wonderful show....the minus point is the duration time is kinda short thus you can see the show is in a rush to tell the whole story....and also unless you have read up or keen to know about the greek gods....if not i dont think you will be interested in it lolz....rating wise i would give a 4/5....love the character of zeus, hades, Perseus, medusa etc....its just splendid....highly recommeded =D