its the time of my favourite festive season again!!!!

HaPpY 2010 hAlLoWeEn To AlL mY dEaR fRiEnDs~~~

what's wrong?

is it just me? or am i expecting too much...im seriously starting to feel the stress....what is wrong? can someone tell me...

这感觉好像已经慢慢远离我了，应该是处在蜜月期的我们，已经没像刚开始时的那么甜蜜了。。而可怕的是，我们在一起只不过才两个月多而已。

他，对我还是很好，只不过少了那份甜蜜，那份激情。

我害怕，害怕这种感觉。。。那不被爱和冷落的感觉。。

或许，他以习惯了用这种方式来对待他的前女友，又或许这就是他一路来的作风，但
是, 我还是希望我是特别的那一位。。

我不喜欢那种被冷落的感觉，不喜欢被抛在脑后的感觉。。。

但他，总是那么粗心大意，很多时候都没察觉我的不开心 haiz....

十月十二日 (晴)

男人，女人 与 朋友。。。

为什么那么多男人会那么在意他们朋友所说的一切呢? 为什么一些人对他们的女朋
友一般一般时，也会把他们那一套不知所为的想法注入他们周围朋友的思想。难道
他们心理不平衡? 看不过朋友对他们爱的女人好一些? 有一些男人也很莫明其妙，
当他们的朋友把他们的女朋友说的一文不值的时候，他竟然没有维护他的女朋友，
而加入了帮忙说一份。这是否又对他们的女朋友公平呢? 究竟在有困难和难题时，
到底是他的这一些所谓的朋友还是那傻傻的女朋友会不顾一切的守着他?

我决不能容许我的男人在不帮我维护的情况下却加入帮忙多踩我一脚。如果这就是
他爱我的表现，那就省起来吧，这样的爱不要也罢。

在一段感情中，我要求的其实并不多，我要的是一个能给我安全感，会维护我，会
在任何情况下都相信我，不欺欺骗骗的男人。很难办到吗?

如果你是那么在乎别人的看法，如果你是那么在意你的朋友，如果连最基本的维护
与疼惜你都不能给我，那么我想，我们是不可能长久的。

朋友固然重要，而真正用心和你交朋友的人是不会在旁左右你的思想的。一个连尊
重都不会给你爱的人，可想而知他是个可交或不可交的朋友。你慢慢去想个清楚吧...

应为我始终相信。。。爱你的人是不会让你难过的...

heart sinking..

that terrible feeling is back once again...and im seriously hating it...cos its hurting me =(

why must u do this to me again? where are the promises u made to me? do u know the heart sinking feeling i get when i know the truth? do u know how hurt i felt in my heart? to you..it might just be a small problem...or maybe not even consider a problem at all...but to me...it cause a really big impact...i dunno how much i mean to you...now im even beginning to doubt...do i even stand a place in your heart...i just made a really simple request from you...and yet u broke it twice....im getting the unstable feeling in our relationship more and more...if you are not serious about it...pls let me know...i will just let go...im really really very tired from all these....

whats the point of saying sorry when u intend to do it again and again...whats the point of saying sorry when u dont mean it....i was having high hopes for both of us...but now...everything just get shattered...have i really made a wrong move?

=(

WTF???

just what the fuck is happening zzzzzzzzzzzz

removing everything from me doesnt kill me...cant u just wake up from ur fucking idea and stop behaving like a small kid??? even my daughter is so much more matured than you! im utterly disappointed....so call "brother"...today then i realise that everything i do is useless...

you keep thinking the whole world let u down...keep saying people make use of you...keep saying people abuse your kindness towards them...is that really the case?? so what makes u think now u can abuse my tolerance towards u too?? how the hell can i put up with all your nonsense all these while...i really dont understand...

im really starting to wonder...how many humans outside actually treat u as their friend...with ur this kinda stupid temperament...how many people can actually stand it and put up with you...now im beginning to pity ur family...not personal attack...but seriously...i really think u have to go see a psychologist...its getting more and more serious every single day...

i totally gave up on you...im really sorry for having to let go of this brotherhood with you...im seriously having enough of all these shit...if ever one day you realise that what u did is wrong, its still a good thing...but sorry...i wont be around anymore to share everything with you....

disappointed

you are already 30 over...yet still doing things like a small kid...I'm utterly disappointed at what you have done last night...i am not upset over the returning of stuffs to you...that's all yours anyway....but you have just shown me how good you are at handling things....not happy...just take everything back...happy...you just give everything to people....what i wanted to say was...not only you have temperament, not only you have the right to get angry...the rest of the people are entitle to their rights too....when i always didnt say anything doesnt mean i agree with you...i just dont want to argue...why must you insist people on going your way? have you spare a thought for the others? why is it then when you want something...its a must to get it done asap and yet when others want something from you...you take your own sweet time?

you have changed so much...is it because you have become so famous that you have forgotten how to appreciate those around you? if you were to continue lidat..in no time i'm sure you will lost all your true friends...seriously...nobody owes you anything...we, as individual human, have the right to choose what we want...dont deprive others from their rights...i do hope that one day you will wake up to your ideas and realise what went wrong...anyway...all the best to you....