ended...

started on 12/07/09
ended on 29/07/09

im so mentally tired...

what am i looking for? i don't know...

coldness

why are you giving me the cold shoulder?
why did things turn out this way?
is there a last chance?
i regretted being nasty that night..
im sorry baby...
i miss you...
can we turn back the time?

haiz...

he have shifted again...got to wait for the letter before i can see him...dunno when will that be...

after 28 days...

finally i get to see him today...

woke up at 6am...meet his dad at 7am and off we proceed to cluster B...waited till abt 9.30am then we get to see him...

hair shaven...seeing him again gives me a kinda weird feeling...

time given was only 20mins...we had a fast chat...told him i hope he would change for the better once he's free...but i get a kinda disappointed answer...and i didnt know how to react to that...i really dont...

things kinda changed...i knew he is just forcing his smile to us...he set me to tears...i know he is trying very hard to control his tears too as he keep telling us how ok he is inside...he is doing fine etc kinda things...a man i've had for 7 years...how would i not know what he is thinking...haiz

gathering

met up with regine and angela last saturday at boat quay, the cavern, for a gathering...they are both my childhood good friends...we had so much to talk about...kinda miss the time when we are young and were having fun together...

now everybody had their own things to be busy with...well...we are all grown ups now...no more the carefree little girl =)

memories of how we get into trouble when we are young came flowing back...seems like it just happen yesterday...i really miss it...all the laughter and happiness lolz...

forever friends we should be...this i promise...

feeling?

22/07/09 is coming soon...2 more days...i've got very odd feeling about it...looking forward? or dreading to go...complicated mixture of feeling now...

its coming to a month soon...wonder how is he...

songs lyric

like this song cos it kinda express how im feeling...


对不起我爱你----梁静茹

作曲：潘协庆 作词：潘协庆/李宗盛 编曲：洪敬尧
　
没别的 只想说对不起 对不起 我真的爱你
不管你会怎么想 你怎么说 也不会改变我的决定
你知道 有时候感情事很难说 很难说 爱人或朋友
从前到现在我真的感觉要 一想你 我的心就发烧

想给你听我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你

没别的 只想说对不起 怎么样 我都会珍惜
不管你会怎么讲 你怎么做 也不会影响我的心情
你知道 有时候男孩更难捉摸 难捉摸 爱人或朋友
现在到永远我真会感觉要 一想你 我的心就狂跳

我的模样记不记得牢 情人卡有没有收到
读书想着你 听歌想着你 大地和蓝天 出现的全是你
我纔不管你的表情 我才不理你回不回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你

你听一听我的心跳 你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想着你 搭车想着你 合眼闭眼间 出现的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回应
不想难为你 又不想放弃你
决定告诉你 对不起对不起 我爱你

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爱上你是一个错 - 杨培安

人生有许多难关要过
自古是情关最让人难受
也许我命中注定情海中颠簸
为你我付出这么的多
却让我痛到有苦不能说
因为我爱你就像那飞蛾扑向火
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我失魂落魄着了魔
解开我的迷惑
收起你的冷漠
你怎忍心这样做
请你告诉我爱上你是一个错
别让我漫漫长夜守寂寞
伤痛已经太多
心也早已伤透
我已不想再为谁去等候

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tur you ti nai?

seeing u everytime makes my heart beat faster..
missing u till my heart's aching...
i miss hugging you...
miss ur smell...
miss your kisses too...

how did i fall in love with you?

i always thot im a woman who can be on my own...
atlas...it wasnt easy...

im always looking forward to see you...
do u happen to know that too?

dilemma

why would this happen when im in the mid of this crises? im in a dilemma now...

Please lend out a helping hand...

poor little girl..having to fight the pain and suffering at such a young age...there are lots of donations going everwhere to help charmaine's family overcome their financial burden...pls click on the banner and read the blog of charmaine...



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finally...

missing you...day 14

finally, i've received a letter today saying i can go visit him le...as i got the letter quite late...i couldnt call them to make the visiting booking...have to wait till tml...

currently now he have been transfer to changi le...no more at sembawang...everything still pending..

they allow tele-visiting and face to face visiting...but face to face visiting i have to wait till next wednesday le...cos i just missed this week de visiting...but i'll try to arrange for tele visiting this saturday...hopefully they can arrange for me...

looking forward to see him soon...really miss him lots....

haiz...

missing him Day 13...

still no news yet...im really getting worried...may god bless him....hope everything turns out fine...

my dear...i hope what we (me and all ur friends) had guess will all comes true...that this will just be a short period that u r leaving us...you will soon join us back and everything goes back to normal...i really miss u loads...thoughts of you filled my heart and mind...pls take good care of yourself...i love you...

10th day

its the 10th day already...still no news yet...wonder how is he now...i bet he must be missing home...missing all his friends,family too...i miss him dearly...

will i get any news tomorrow? i want but im scare...scare what im getting is bad news...i hope the news im getting is good one...have been feeling im on tenderhooks for the past 1 week...when can i be at ease...

life without him really makes a big difference...no one to nag at me...no one calling me asking "what are you doing?" "where are you?"...nobody to kiss me goodnight before i sleep...no one to disturb isabel...etc etc...suddenly the whole house just seems so quiet...its a scary feeling...i just have the feeling im being abandon =(

haiz...its just all fated...if going in for a few months can exchange back his freedom...i would be happy for him too...hope that he will sincerely change once he's out...im willing to forgive him again for breaking the trust i had in him...for breaking my heart times and again...

during the days when he was not around...memories of our past came flocking back to me...the arguements, the happiness...the sweet and the bad times...i miss him...

there are times when i just feel like letting go...but its really not easy...its afterall a solid 7 years relationship we had...other then him having those bad habits which i detest...he is really good to me...

i pray that he will not disappoint those who loved and concern about him again...pray that he knows how to treasure everything once he's back...i pray that he will be fine...

online lingerie store

my friend had just started out an online lingerie shop...went see see look look around his webby and i must say his stocks are nice and price very very reasonable...i doubt u can get these kinda lingerie with his pricing anywhere in spore...haha...now i sounds like a sales person ar... =P

anyway i dont earn comm from him...just feel that his stuffs are worth buying...for guys who wanna buy for ur wife or gf or gals who wanna buy for themself or as a gift...do drop by and have a look...who knows u might just see something you like...

anyway the link ---> www.epremium.biz (pls click on the "online store" found on your left hand under the main menu)

happy shopping =)

nervous

its coming 1 week soon...from what i heard, his results will be out by this week...im getting nervous on the final outcome...is everything going to be good? is the charges going to be the same as what i've heard...i pray hard...

6 days without him and i can feel my pace being disrupted...everything just seems weird...i have been calling his closed friends who are helping to find out how is he now, everytime hoping to get good news...but...it always ended up with no news...

lucky for me...he had get 2 ppl to help him make a call out to me to let me know how is everything...and i certainly hope what that 2 person said will come true...he is only going to be charged with a minor offence...

im going to get news on him either this coming thurs or fri which is tml...i hope i get good news...

god pls bless him....