dishearten

mentally tired....i wish i could go oversea asap...alone...for good....i dont see anything thats worth me staying back...

the pressure is getting heavier....i dont want to be blame for dunno how to teach my child...i've done all i could, say all i should...but its meaningless....i dunno what i must do to be call im concern, i care or i love...

its ok...i guess...im just not a good mother...