thoughts

am awaiting for the day im starting work...been rotting at home lately...didnt really hang out with my kakis...only time im not home is when wee hoong and his colleague came over to jb and i actually travel up to jb and find them...other than that is when he came over to sg...took them ard sg for a few hours...

hmmm....got my friends to check for other job opportunities for me too...i guess im ready to stay away from this lion and dragon dance circle...kinda sick of everything...i need to lead a more normal lifestyle from now onwards...

my bro, giving me problem again...and im seriously tired too of having to pacify him again and again...its just so...torturing for me i guess...so mentally strained staying with a "time bomb"....i hope i can get away from all these...now i just wanted money and my friends...i wanted to save and use my money for holidays instead...i really have no more time for all the rubbish which i have been facing for so many years.

perhaps...i should have left this scene donkey years ago...maybe i would be much better off by now....

anyway...i hope i can attain my dreams...i had enough of all these...god please bless me...

online movies update

these are all the online movies which i've watch recently...some of the movies are kinda old...but as i didnt even watch the front part...i've decided to start from their first part to the final part...now im only left with "pirates of the caribbean - mermaid" which i've yet to catch it on theatre...

pirates of the caribbean is indeed a nice show...all parts of it...johnny depp is kinda cute too haha...highly recommended to watch...rating 4/5

fast & furious is another film which is recommended too...i guess guys will loved this movie...all parts are exciting and nice...4/5 for the rating too.

the room mate....is a thriller...about a girl who have mental disorder...not bad i would say...4/5 too i would rate....

heartache

"You hurt me more than What i deserve...is it just because I loved you more than What u deserve..."



haven been feeling happy these few days...emotionally drained...too tired to do anything....been staying at home for the past 5 days....

last night his current gf came over to find me...we had some talk...obviously she is so into him now that whatever things that happen...she seems to be siding him...well...i guess...love is really blind afterall...

i guess alot of ppl must be thinking im upset bcos he left me and get himself a gf...but thats not the case...i can really accept that the love between us has cease...but what i couldnt tolerate was the betrayal and lies he gave to me...even up till the day we broke off....its just too much for me to bear...a man whom i have been staying with and loving for so long has all along treated me like a fool...i feel so hurt...so used...do i deserve all that?